Thursday, June 29, 2006
hopelessly romantic date
 lonesome bus stop...gay-ish bf... heheheh... i love you,dear...  hanging out @ the cooffee shop...  abandoned fishes...why?? bcoz it was too tiny issit?? ~sigh.... such a waste...:P  dear teaching me chinese calligraphy.... 24th july 2006 me n dear went on a wat we christened as a 'Hopelessly romantic date'.itinerary includes changi village and changi beach.activities such as sleeping by the beach,hanging out @ coffee shops,walking by the beach,hearty talk @ lonesome busstop and a final pit stop to changi village. oh! and not to forget the oogling of travestites.if i had not known better, its like "pretty women...walking down the streee....ets...." bewitched by their oh-so-beautiful long legs,tight tummy and ample bosoms.(while having conv w/ dear i realised that all pretty girls seems to dress alike...they could be in the same train as us, sitting beside or across us, not knowing their true nature...scary and strange!!!)oh god! i'm envious of travestites! so whats da 'hopelessly" part?there was only $50++ btwn usand we had nowhere to stay overnight.its not like we can bunk in anywhere.it was raining and changi village is lacking of multi-purpose carpark or @ least some indoors thingy.it was still romantic though.and fer da sake of being 2gether dear sacrificed his sleeping time. there was a shocking view of the night.a bunch of uniformed govt guys stopped by to make a deal w/ some travestites (or maybe they were just makinf friends). and it sure doesnt look like they were intended for arrest, unless of course if it was for the bed-ding kind... :P costume play anyone?oh hell... everyone succumbs to weaknessses but what will one thing of those tough guys supposedly to protect the streets @ nite were just banging on their duty?? too much information peeps...i know its da new century n stuff... but i still to prefer if they could maintain or uphold the "serve the country, protect the streets from crimes...we're heroes.." reputation... thankies...
Saturday, June 24, 2006
in the minds of the minorites
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Friday, June 23, 2006
ain the destroyer
 from a cute little crack, to big holes and grains of crack... if u noticed, the cracks has become grains of sand.... imagine the extend of destruction i've caused... ~sigh....  and that crack from above pix has caused my screen to be rendered totally useless.... its official my friends, nothing i hold can last very long... ~sigh... finally, my hp has gone in2 a state of coma... not that i was anticipating it but it was inevitable i've aspoiled 2 of my hp in a span of 3 years less as yet again Ain the destroyer i tot it cld hold on fer another year but oh well when one has to go, one has to go... after much consideration (no more "hey that looks nice") i have finally decided to think through... wat kinda hp i nid wat functions will most benefit me... -fm radio -expandable memory -camera 2-way + megapixel -slide up/rotate 90 deg -nokia/motorola -black ok! i'm done.tee hee...
Tuesday, June 20, 2006
sorry to the world
sorry to the world i'm sorry i'm sorry that i'm not understanding enough i'm sorry for being selfish i'm sorry for being rude i'm sorry for my hypocritical theories i'm sorry for my temper i'm sorry for my raised voice i'm sorry for my depression i'm sorry for being sensitive i'm sorry for being a ditz i'm sorry for my stupidity i'm sorry for my very existence my presence to this world and my greatest apology for being the persont that i am a great big fucking bitch. thank you.
Monday, June 19, 2006
the nightmare
earlier two days ago i had a tiff w/ sum1 @ werk its hard when u haf a fallout w/ ppl u hafta work closely w/ its irritating having to withstand his insolence forced to bear the torments or be faced w/ consequences i wish to say it was a misundertanding but my heart is not at rest i'm in no haste to clear the air... just let it be...
Thursday, June 15, 2006
analysing ain
 top secret document....  no money in this world can buy.... ....:P not one person in this world is one-dimentional he may be a badass but he's also vulnerable maybe he's vulnerable thats why he's a badass its human to put up a front a front when in fact is a shield coz we tend to hide the things we fear of. psychologically, we like to challenge ourselves how far can we go but never over the borderline? i inflict pain on myself coz i can control it when i feel like ive reached my peak i feel confidence but i fear pain when i least expect it eg, to be shot point blank by an assailant when i spot others' weaknesses i rationalise them coz i know i'm not perfect in truth, i wonder if there are ppl out there who are just as bad or worst than me i hope to see a evil side of myself in others to reassure myself i'm not as wicked as i tot its all about being "self" even for a good intention you feel self satisfaction rite? when u've helped someone you feel gud? isnt it all about you?? hmm... p/s: am i crapping?sometimes when i haf deep thoughts, it tends to jumble up,giving me nothing to lay them down properly forgive me if they're not well-planned or a smooth flow. as always... a very confusing girl...AIN...
Tuesday, June 13, 2006
unforgivable
as i saw him just now... words were playing in my mind... if he was to ask what was wrong w/ me (i was avoiding him, big time!!) my reply would be simple "i am nothing but a humble servant you command, i obey if you ask me to kiss your ass hell, i mite even throw in a lick for you coz upon doing so, it mite lead me to death and oh my...how much i wanna die rite now..." argh!! its frustrating seeing his face everyday i dun care even if u say he was born deficit born w/ rude tones and no manners i still dun care!!!!no rationality can cure my hatred it has been etched deep within the core of my heart and only a miracle can make me forgive him.....
Monday, June 12, 2006
blacked out
whassup w/ black outs 2dae.... just today alone a few areas in my werkplace were blanketed w/ darkness....hhm... someone nvr pay their bills on time...  down the hallway...pray u'll nvr see her...  submerged in darkness  lifts and elevators...  the locker area... todae's experiences----> better education comes with no manners sth i've learn while werking here its not everybody (thank God) its that minority that bloody piss me off did college teach you to 'fuck' people around? they sure did a gud job i feel so inferior that suicidal thoughts were flirting w/ me am i stereotyping? yes!! goddamnit(fyi, he really did)!!! diploma doesnt gif u da license to be rude i didnt know that degrees have a specialisation course called "how to be an asshole" maybe he's searching for he true defination of anal tunnelling its so unfortunate that i hafta start werking w/ him am i rude? yes i ma... to certain extend i dun ask fer favours rudely i dun use profanities as an everyday word i dun associate someone w/ a body part casually unless i lose my temper possibly, he have pms like the rest of us possibly he have the most severe case coz i cant finda sec he was nice courtesy has been wiped out from his pretty little brain i nid to teach him a lesson...
Saturday, June 10, 2006
funky mix-just a lil bit
 my 1st tandoori chichken!!!  serangoon rd... 1st stop of da dae...i bought myself a bindi and devdas vcd...  artists @ werk!!  seee da deep set eyes?? the algae/dirt made the merlion look like its wearing an eyeliener... possibly paul twohill (s'pore idol contestant)'s supporter??  me n winnie....behind the cityscape yesterdae went out w/ winnie n her lil bro to raffles, sim lim... little india... wah.. indian cuisine serves large portion and very delicious too... i mite go there again next time w/ dear.. ;) dear was our tour guide of da day(as usual) and we saw pavement artists at werk... followed by hmm... merlion's 1st bath( ewwww!)....
Friday, June 09, 2006
are you lyke me??
January Stubborn and hard-hearted. Ambitious and serious. Loves to teach and be taught. Always looking at people's flaws and weaknesses. Likes to criticize. Hardworking and productive. Smart, neat and organized. Sensitive and has deep thoughts. Knows how to make others happy. Quiet unless excited or tensed. Rather reserved. Highly attentive. Resistant to illnesses but prone to colds. Romantic but has difficulties expressing love. Loves children. Loyal. Has great social abilities yet easily jealous. Very Stubborn and money cautious... me:ok! ok! i geddit... must they repeat stubborn 2 xs??!! August Loves to joke. Attractive. Suave and caring. Brave and fearless.Firm and has leadership qualities. Knows how to console others. Too generous and egoistic. Takes high pride of oneself. Thirsty for praises. Extraordinary spirit. Easily angered. Angry when provoked. Easily jealous. Observant. Careful and cautious. Thinks quickly. Independent thoughts. Loves to lead and to be led. Loves to dream. Talented in the arts, music and defense. Sensitive but not petty. Poor resistance against illnesses. Learns to relax. Hasty and trusty. Romantic. Loving and caring. Loves to make friends -> my baby's bdae
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Thursday, June 08, 2006
now let me show... you , the shape of my butt.....
 i'm sick of ppl asking me y i wear my pants low. everywhere i go, its like "wah!! i pull down ur pants & dats it man!!" i dun even show my navel (i'm not miss body beautiful) i just dun understand how some gers can wear tight breathless jeans maybe they haf perky butts but 4 the benefit of everyone, i shall not reveal visually the shape of my butt (just a hint 4 u) big hips, flat butt...very bad combination a picture of disaster sometimes i see plus size girls wearing sleeveless tops n miniskirts i wonder where they plucked their courage from coz i wish to have a taste of dat too i dun even dare to wear sleeveless tops outside of home...
Tuesday, June 06, 2006
counting down the days...
  behold the new additions to my family!! our 2 hamsters. i dun even noe their names ahah!considering the family's attention span(equivalent to that of a 1 yr old kid's), i doubt of its long survival. no... we're not hamster eaters...but we tend to forget our priorities. esp of those affecting another living things. yes!!! i have finally confessed that i'm a self-ish... self-centered cow-ard!!! argh!! i nid help.... i hafta change...cure me! enlighten me!! save me!!now!
Monday, June 05, 2006
an incredible laughter...
i cant believe i almost forgot abt this just now @ werk aaron(my bickering bud, rmbr?) asked me "how do you spell mrt?" so i said "just M.R.T lah... then?" he shook his head and replied no... "u're wrong" my mind was racing... wondering wat the hell it could have been... he always disturbs me w/ qns like these thinking i've outwitted him i asked "so how u spell spca huh??" he looked at me w/ gleaming (maybe more like cunning) eyes and retorted "A.S.S , P.E.E. ,......" BLOODY HELL.... i wanted to scold him upside down but i was laughing so hard i hafta give him points fer dat!!! oh well.... maybe i'll win another time....
an episode of an adult drama queen
 ok! thats it! no more sitting straight fer me i'm condemned to be a slouchy idiot and i shall start getting used to peeps calling me 'tortoise' its over!!! i'm done for! argh!!! and on another sad note, i've been progessively gaining weight nooOo!!!! thats not supposed to happen! i'm supposed to eat all i want AND losing weight!! y is gravity and bad matabolism merciless towards me?!! wat haf i done in my past life? argh!!! now, here's da interesting story yesterday i was a priviledged audience of a bathroom singer(a v. gud one too!!) rite at the comfort of my own home's toilet.. hehe she was singing shania twain's from this moment and i was just sitting down there (the bidet actually) totally mesmerised by wat i heard she made the song her own powerful singing voice... shud be joining s'pore idol(if she didnt oredy la) suddenly i haf these cravings fer exotic exquisite cuisine i wanna try mediterranean.. oriental western...indian... wooh!! on fri, me and dear mite be dropping by @ the esplanade waterfront... the last time we visited the surrounding vibe was peaceful fun and romantic enjoying the seaside(or river) view listening to young talents from syf spanish military music haunting the air.. cool natural breeze intimate lighting.. ahh... some things in life are just free.. aint it?? ~sigh....
Sunday, June 04, 2006
loosen up my buttons baybeh...
bonnie n clyde '06 ( angsty couple... symptoms of an anti-social team...hmm..) just registered for nitec course OH MY GAWD!! nvr in my lyf wld i haf imagine sch-ling in ite... not sure why tho... degrading?bias? or simply socially afraid?? hm.. it cld be all, it cld be none and nonetheless this is a big step fer me 4 its da 1st tyme i signed 4 a sch w/out my parents' help nor permission this is fer my own gud rite? independence sth i nid to taste b4 entering the adult world hey!!! i'm already 21... shit... and todae i didnt blow my top almost miraculous, really... we had a cultured attitude and behaviour not like a rougue-ish barbarian i didnt raise my voice nor i scolded her @ all... now, isnt tat amazing? i hope to keep up w/ this fer da rest of da week (i cant hope fer much can i?? ~sigh...)
Saturday, June 03, 2006
beautiful indulgences vol 1
   max brenner the chocolate bar... greeted by the delicious aroma of the cocoa variety oh...irresistable we made our order chocolate fondue, mind you the decor simple wooden chairs, wooden tables dominated by earthy colours i was surprised to be served w/ different dips white chocolate, dark and milk strawberries shortbread banana and marshmallow... yummy the presentation was pretty romantic too atmospheric music playing in the background dips served ala aromatheraphy oil style ceramic cups and candles it was sumptuous just nice really... not too much, not too little sinful yet oh so romantic....
Thursday, June 01, 2006
best pirates quote....
best pirates quote....Barbossa: "I must admit, Jack, I thought I had you figured. But it turns out you're a hard man to predict." Jack Sparrow: " Me, I'm dishonest. And a dishonest man you can always trust to be dishonest. Honestly. It's the honest ones you want to watch out for. Because you can never predict when they're going to do something incredibly . . . stupid." Will Turner: This is either madness... or brilliance. Jack Sparrow: It's remarkable how often those two traits coincide. Jack Sparrow: One question about your business, boy, or there's no use going: This girl...how far are you willing to go to save her? Will Turner: I'd die for her. Jack Sparrow: Oh good. No worries then. "'Black Pearl ? I’ve heard stories. She’s been preying on ships and settlements for near ten years. Never leaves any survivors.' 'No survivors? Then where do the stories come from, I wonder?'" "'You're the one they're hunting. The pirate.' 'You seem somewhat familiar. Have I threatened you before?'" Quotes: Will Turner: My name is Will Turner, my father was Bootstrap Bill Turner. His blood runs in my veins. Ragetti: Why, it's the spittin' image of our Bootstrap Bill, come back to haunt us. Will Turner: On my word, do as I say, or I'll pull this trigger and be lost to Davy Jones's locker. (more)
the new outlet
the new outletyesterdae i found myself lost in the state of delirium its not as if i was 'clawing out of the vortex' i was relishing it not exactly sure of what she did to have awaken the devil in me but her simplest actions seems to irk me spitting out poison like 2nd nature i was annoyed by her just... her every single move displeases me every word uttered adds to my fury as if all the past anger has resurfaced and she was my outlet in the worst kind of way its not right this trancending direction but i counldnt help myself if there was a way for me to apologise... maybe i would maybe i would... p/s: but knowing me...i probably wouldnt... hhm... self-centered cow i am...
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