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Thursday, June 29, 2006 hopelessly romantic date

lonesome bus stop...gay-ish bf... heheheh... i love you,dear...

hanging out @ the cooffee shop...

abandoned fishes...why?? bcoz it was too tiny issit?? ~sigh.... such a waste...:P

dear teaching me chinese calligraphy....

24th july 2006

me n dear went on a wat we christened as a 'Hopelessly romantic date'.itinerary includes changi village and changi beach.activities such as sleeping by the beach,hanging out @ coffee shops,walking by the beach,hearty talk @ lonesome busstop and a final pit stop to changi village. oh! and not to forget the oogling of travestites.if i had not known better, its like "pretty women...walking down the streee....ets...." bewitched by their oh-so-beautiful long legs,tight tummy and ample bosoms.(while having conv w/ dear i realised that all pretty girls seems to dress alike...they could be in the same train as us, sitting beside or across us, not knowing their true nature...scary and strange!!!)oh god! i'm envious of travestites!

so whats da 'hopelessly" part?there was only $50++ btwn usand we had nowhere to stay overnight.its not like we can bunk in anywhere.it was raining and changi village is lacking of multi-purpose carpark or @ least some indoors thingy.it was still romantic though.and fer da sake of being 2gether dear sacrificed his sleeping time.

there was a shocking view of the night.a bunch of uniformed govt guys stopped by to make a deal w/ some travestites (or maybe they were just makinf friends). and it sure doesnt look like they were intended for arrest, unless of course if it was for the bed-ding kind... :P costume play anyone?oh hell... everyone succumbs to weaknessses but what will one thing of those tough guys supposedly to protect the streets @ nite were just banging on their duty?? too much information peeps...i know its da new century n stuff... but i still to prefer if they could maintain or uphold the "serve the country, protect the streets from crimes...we're heroes.." reputation... thankies...

nonsensical ramblings posted by ain at 11:02 AM

Saturday, June 24, 2006 in the minds of the minorites

You scored as Cannibal. Cannibal. Stay 10 feet away from another person at all times.

Cannibal

67%

Psycho

58%

Butcher

50%

Stalker

33%

Chainsaw

33%

Sniper

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oh well... one can always fantasize...

nonsensical ramblings posted by ain at 10:19 AM

Friday, June 23, 2006 ain the destroyer

from a cute little crack, to big holes and grains of crack... if u noticed, the cracks has become grains of sand.... imagine the extend of destruction i've caused... ~sigh....

and that crack from above pix has caused my screen to be rendered totally useless.... its official my friends, nothing i hold can last very long... ~sigh...

finally, my hp has gone
in2 a state of coma...
not that i was anticipating it
but it was inevitable
i've aspoiled 2 of my hp
in a span of 3 years less
as yet again
Ain the destroyer
i tot it cld
hold on fer another
year but oh well
when one has to go,
one has to go...
after much consideration
(no more "hey that looks nice")
i have finally decided
to think through...
wat kinda hp i nid
wat functions will most benefit me...
-fm radio
-expandable memory
-camera 2-way + megapixel
-slide up/rotate 90 deg
-nokia/motorola
-black

ok! i'm done.tee hee...

nonsensical ramblings posted by ain at 11:09 PM

Tuesday, June 20, 2006 sorry to the world

sorry to the world

i'm sorry
i'm sorry that i'm not
understanding enough
i'm sorry
for being selfish
i'm sorry
for being rude
i'm sorry
for my hypocritical theories
i'm sorry
for my temper
i'm sorry
for my raised voice
i'm sorry
for my depression
i'm sorry
for being sensitive
i'm sorry
for being a ditz
i'm sorry
for my stupidity
i'm sorry
for my very existence
my presence to this world
and my greatest apology
for being the persont
that i am
a great big fucking bitch.

thank you.

nonsensical ramblings posted by ain at 9:21 AM

Monday, June 19, 2006 the nightmare

earlier two days ago
i had a tiff w/ sum1 @ werk
its hard
when u haf a fallout
w/ ppl u hafta work closely w/
its irritating
having to withstand his insolence
forced to bear the torments
or be faced w/ consequences
i wish to say it was a misundertanding
but my heart is not at rest
i'm in no haste to
clear the air...
just let it be...

nonsensical ramblings posted by ain at 9:24 AM

Thursday, June 15, 2006 analysing ain

top secret document....

no money in this world can buy....
....:P

not one person in this world
is one-dimentional
he may be a badass
but he's also vulnerable
maybe he's vulnerable
thats why he's a badass
its human to put up a front
a front when in fact is a
shield
coz we tend to hide
the things we fear of.
psychologically,
we like to challenge ourselves
how far can we go
but never over the borderline?
i inflict pain on myself
coz i can control it
when i feel like ive reached my peak
i feel confidence
but i fear pain when i least expect it
eg,
to be shot point blank by an assailant

when i spot others' weaknesses
i rationalise them
coz i know i'm not perfect
in truth,
i wonder if there are ppl
out there who are just as bad
or worst than me
i hope to see a evil side
of myself in others
to reassure myself
i'm not as wicked as i tot
its all about being "self"
even for a good intention
you feel self satisfaction rite?
when u've helped someone
you feel gud?
isnt it all about you??
hmm...

p/s: am i crapping?sometimes when i haf deep thoughts, it tends to jumble up,giving me nothing to lay them down properly
forgive me if they're not well-planned or a smooth flow. as always... a very confusing girl...AIN...

nonsensical ramblings posted by ain at 9:55 AM

Tuesday, June 13, 2006 unforgivable

as i saw him just now...
words were playing in my mind...
if he was to ask what was wrong w/ me
(i was avoiding him, big time!!)
my reply would be simple

"i am nothing but a humble servant
you command, i obey
if you ask me to kiss your ass
hell, i mite even throw in a lick for you
coz upon doing so, it mite lead me to death
and oh my...how much i wanna die rite now..."
argh!!
its frustrating seeing his face everyday
i dun care
even if u say he was born deficit
born w/ rude tones and no manners
i still dun care!!!!
no rationality can cure my hatred
it has been etched deep within the core of my heart
and only a miracle can
make me forgive him.....

nonsensical ramblings posted by ain at 9:00 AM

Monday, June 12, 2006 blacked out

whassup w/ black outs 2dae.... just today alone a few areas in my werkplace were blanketed w/ darkness....hhm... someone nvr pay their bills on time...

down the hallway...pray u'll nvr see her...

submerged in darkness

lifts and elevators...

the locker area...

todae's experiences---->
better education
comes with no manners
sth i've learn while werking here
its not everybody (thank God)
its that minority
that bloody piss me off
did college teach you to
'fuck' people around?
they sure did a gud job
i feel so inferior that
suicidal thoughts were flirting w/ me
am i stereotyping?
yes!! goddamnit(fyi, he really did)!!!
diploma doesnt gif u da
license to be rude
i didnt know that
degrees have a specialisation course
called "how to be an asshole"
maybe he's searching for he true defination
of anal tunnelling
its so unfortunate that i hafta
start werking w/ him
am i rude?
yes i ma... to certain extend
i dun ask fer favours rudely
i dun use profanities
as an everyday word
i dun associate someone w/ a
body part casually
unless i lose my temper
possibly, he have pms like
the rest of us
possibly he have the most
severe case coz i cant finda sec he was nice
courtesy has been wiped out
from his pretty little brain
i nid to teach him a lesson...

nonsensical ramblings posted by ain at 8:51 AM

Saturday, June 10, 2006 funky mix-just a lil bit

my 1st tandoori chichken!!!

serangoon rd... 1st stop of da dae...i bought myself a bindi and devdas vcd...

artists @ werk!!

seee da deep set eyes?? the algae/dirt made the merlion look like its wearing an eyeliener... possibly paul twohill (s'pore idol contestant)'s supporter??

me n winnie....behind the cityscape

yesterdae went out w/ winnie n her lil bro to raffles, sim lim... little india... wah.. indian cuisine serves large portion and very delicious too... i mite go there again next time w/ dear.. ;)

dear was our tour guide of da day(as usual) and we saw pavement artists at werk... followed by hmm... merlion's 1st bath( ewwww!)....

nonsensical ramblings posted by ain at 8:04 AM

Friday, June 09, 2006 are you lyke me??

January
Stubborn and hard-hearted. Ambitious and serious. Loves to teach and be taught. Always looking at people's flaws and weaknesses. Likes to criticize. Hardworking and productive. Smart, neat and organized. Sensitive and has deep thoughts. Knows how to make others happy. Quiet unless excited or tensed. Rather reserved. Highly attentive. Resistant to illnesses but prone to colds. Romantic but has difficulties expressing love. Loves children. Loyal. Has great social abilities yet easily jealous. Very Stubborn and money cautious... me:ok! ok! i geddit... must they repeat stubborn 2 xs??!!

August
Loves to joke. Attractive. Suave and caring. Brave and fearless.Firm and has leadership qualities. Knows how to console others. Too generous and egoistic. Takes high pride of oneself. Thirsty for praises. Extraordinary spirit. Easily angered. Angry when provoked. Easily jealous. Observant. Careful and cautious. Thinks quickly. Independent thoughts. Loves to lead and to be led. Loves to dream. Talented in the arts, music and defense. Sensitive but not petty. Poor resistance against illnesses. Learns to relax. Hasty and trusty. Romantic. Loving and caring. Loves to make friends -> my baby's bdae

nonsensical ramblings posted by ain at 10:04 AM

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nonsensical ramblings posted by ain at 10:04 AM

Thursday, June 08, 2006 now let me show... you , the shape of my butt.....

i'm sick of ppl asking me y i
wear my pants low.
everywhere i go, its like
"wah!! i pull down ur pants & dats it man!!"
i dun even show my navel
(i'm not miss body beautiful)
i just dun understand
how some gers can wear tight breathless jeans
maybe they haf perky butts
but 4 the benefit of everyone,
i shall not reveal visually the shape
of my butt
(just a hint 4 u)
big hips, flat butt...very bad combination
a picture of disaster
sometimes i see plus size girls
wearing sleeveless tops n miniskirts
i wonder where they plucked their courage from
coz i wish to have a taste of dat too
i dun even dare to wear sleeveless tops
outside of home...

nonsensical ramblings posted by ain at 9:33 AM

Tuesday, June 06, 2006 counting down the days...

behold the new additions to my family!! our 2 hamsters. i dun even noe their names
ahah!considering the family's attention span(equivalent to that of a 1 yr old kid's), i doubt of its long survival. no... we're not hamster eaters...but we tend to forget our priorities. esp of those affecting another living things. yes!!! i have finally confessed that i'm a self-ish... self-centered cow-ard!!! argh!! i nid help.... i hafta change...cure me! enlighten me!! save me!!now!

nonsensical ramblings posted by ain at 9:20 AM

Monday, June 05, 2006 an incredible laughter...

i cant believe i almost forgot abt this
just now @ werk
aaron(my bickering bud, rmbr?)
asked me "how do you spell mrt?"
so i said "just M.R.T lah... then?"
he shook his head and replied no...
"u're wrong"
my mind was racing...
wondering wat the hell it could have been...
he always disturbs me w/ qns like these
thinking i've outwitted him i asked
"so how u spell spca huh??"
he looked at me w/ gleaming (maybe more like cunning) eyes
and retorted "A.S.S , P.E.E. ,......"
BLOODY HELL....
i wanted to scold him upside down
but i was laughing so hard i hafta give
him points fer dat!!!
oh well.... maybe i'll win another time....

nonsensical ramblings posted by ain at 10:06 AM

an episode of an adult drama queen

ok! thats it! no more sitting
straight fer me
i'm condemned to be a slouchy idiot
and i shall start getting
used to peeps calling me 'tortoise'
its over!!! i'm done for!
argh!!!
and on another sad note,
i've been progessively gaining weight
nooOo!!!!
thats not supposed to happen!
i'm supposed to eat all i want
AND losing weight!!
y is gravity and bad matabolism
merciless towards me?!!
wat haf i done in my past life?
argh!!!

now, here's da interesting story
yesterday i was a priviledged audience
of a bathroom singer(a v. gud one too!!)
rite at the comfort of my own home's toilet.. hehe
she was singing shania twain's from this moment
and i was just sitting down there (the bidet actually)
totally mesmerised by wat i heard
she made the song her own
powerful singing voice...
shud be joining s'pore idol(if she didnt oredy la)

suddenly i haf these cravings
fer exotic exquisite cuisine
i wanna try mediterranean..
oriental western...indian... wooh!!

on fri, me and dear
mite be dropping by @ the
esplanade waterfront...
the last time we visited
the surrounding vibe was peaceful
fun and romantic
enjoying the seaside(or river) view
listening to young talents from syf
spanish military music haunting the air..
cool natural breeze
intimate lighting..
ahh...
some things in life are just
free.. aint it??
~sigh....

nonsensical ramblings posted by ain at 9:07 AM

Sunday, June 04, 2006 loosen up my buttons baybeh...

bonnie n clyde '06 (angsty couple... symptoms of an anti-social team...hmm..)

just registered for nitec course
OH MY GAWD!!
nvr in my lyf wld i haf
imagine sch-ling in ite...
not sure why tho...
degrading?bias?
or simply socially afraid??
hm.. it cld be all, it cld be none
and nonetheless
this is a big step fer me
4 its da 1st tyme i signed
4 a sch w/out my parents' help
nor permission
this is fer my own gud rite?
independence
sth i nid to taste
b4 entering the adult world
hey!!! i'm already 21... shit...

and todae i didnt blow my top
almost miraculous, really...
we had a cultured attitude and behaviour
not like a rougue-ish barbarian
i didnt raise my voice nor i scolded
her @ all...
now, isnt tat amazing?
i hope to keep up w/ this fer da rest of da week
(i cant hope fer much can i?? ~sigh...)

nonsensical ramblings posted by ain at 9:56 AM

Saturday, June 03, 2006 beautiful indulgences vol 1

max brenner
the chocolate bar...
greeted by the
delicious aroma of
the cocoa variety
oh...irresistable
we made our order
chocolate fondue, mind you

the decor simple
wooden chairs, wooden tables
dominated by earthy colours

i was surprised to be served
w/ different dips
white chocolate, dark and milk
strawberries shortbread
banana and marshmallow...
yummy

the presentation
was pretty romantic too
atmospheric music playing
in the background
dips served ala
aromatheraphy oil style
ceramic cups and candles
it was sumptuous
just nice really...
not too much, not too little
sinful yet oh so
romantic....

nonsensical ramblings posted by ain at 9:02 AM

Thursday, June 01, 2006 best pirates quote....

best pirates quote....

Barbossa: "I must admit, Jack, I thought I had you figured. But it turns out you're a hard man to predict."
Jack Sparrow: "Me, I'm dishonest. And a dishonest man you can always trust to be dishonest. Honestly. It's the honest ones you want to watch out for. Because you can never predict when they're going to do something incredibly . . . stupid."

Will Turner: This is either madness... or brilliance.
Jack Sparrow: It's remarkable how often those two traits coincide.

Jack Sparrow: One question about your business, boy, or there's no use going: This girl...how far are you willing to go to save her?
Will Turner: I'd die for her.
Jack Sparrow: Oh good. No worries then.

"'Black Pearl ? I’ve heard stories. She’s been preying on ships and settlements for near ten years. Never leaves any survivors.'
'No survivors? Then where do the stories come from, I wonder?'"

"'You're the one they're hunting. The pirate.'
'You seem somewhat familiar. Have I threatened you before?'"

Quotes:
Will Turner: My name is Will Turner, my father was Bootstrap Bill Turner. His blood runs in my veins.
Ragetti: Why, it's the spittin' image of our Bootstrap Bill, come back to haunt us.
Will Turner: On my word, do as I say, or I'll pull this trigger and be lost to Davy Jones's locker.
(more)

nonsensical ramblings posted by ain at 2:55 AM

the new outlet

the new outlet

yesterdae
i found myself
lost in the state of delirium
its not as if
i was 'clawing out of the vortex'
i was relishing it
not exactly sure
of what she did
to have awaken
the devil in me
but her simplest actions
seems to irk me
spitting out poison like 2nd nature
i was annoyed by her
just... her

every single move
displeases me
every word uttered
adds to my fury
as if all the past
anger has resurfaced
and she
was my outlet
in the worst
kind of way

its not right
this trancending direction
but i counldnt help myself
if there was a way
for me to apologise...
maybe i would
maybe i would...

p/s: but knowing me...i probably wouldnt...
hhm... self-centered cow i am...

nonsensical ramblings posted by ain at 2:23 AM