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Sunday, March 19, 2006
i'm a cartoon


they called me a cartoon...they called me a cartoon!!!
can u believe it? ~sigh
i was walking at the pathway when i saw a cocroach heading my feet! so i jumped
frantically and a FAMILY in front me (happened to see me doing just that) laughed at me!!!! they laughed at me and said i was like a cartoon! bloody hell :P

Friday, March 17, 2006
just 1 of those crazy tots... y'know...


bebe's heavily pregnant(6mths) but sometimes ppl still dun give up their seat to her.here's the thing, she's got a slim body. the bump on her tummy deceives her actual state. ppl would think she either just got a beer belly or only 3mths pregnant...you see? that the dilemma most commuters face. girls are very sensitive(i shud know :P) and its hard to tell if she's just carrying fats or really pregnant... and staring seriously doesnt help. sometimes when i get a seat near the aisle, i'd get really scared.if a lady looks pregnant, how would u noe if she is or isnt?occasionally i'd resort to staring at her tummy for a while before deciding to give up my seat. can u imagine the horror if she's not pregnant and i gave the seat to her? its like, i'm blatantly called her fat in front of everybody. i have no qualms abt giving up my seat to expecting mums...its just that those early stages.... i cant tell...i'm just saying this so that those ladies wont get offended by people like me...i've been trying to tell bebe to eat more, so itd seem more obvious that she's expecting but other than that, i guess they'd have to bear for a while.... hmm....

Monday, March 13, 2006
theoretically silly!




my dear dear bf!!! love him so much....when i was getting out of the toilet 2 days ago, i had this thinking...it was really stupid. all these while i've always wanted to eat at a turkish restaurant. i keep begging my bf to dine in one but time managed to disallow that somehow... finally we decided to eat @ the anatolia( far east plaza)yesterday. it got me excited but it also got me thinking why i so desperately want to eat turkish food... it finally dawned on me that i actually wanted to eat a turkey!!! not turkish cuisine.. get what i mean...it never occured to me that turkish restaurants dun necessarily serve turkey!!! i'll be damned!! haha...

Tuesday, March 07, 2006
in recent times... ~sighs all over!

i'm sick of hearing robberies in the news; especially of the ones that happened in Johore.whatever the hell happened to "making a honest living"? are they THAT poor? and why now? it disgusts me to think that they have this mindset whereby S'poreans are rich.we worked like fuck and they get to enjoy our hard earned cash?is this their last resort? i swear to God if there was anyone who wishes to mug me, i'd rather give them my life(they would probably take my money too) and haunt them. haunt them til they asphyxiate in their own shit!! hey, i have nothing against the citizens of the neighbouring country. i've got relatives there. why cant they just enforce a tighter security? or do i have to simply boycott Malaysia altogether? we're all Asians. its hurtful to see our own brothers doing this to us!! even my Malaysian friends working in S'pore are targeted.

there was a saying, in an old malay film. it says " you want to eat, so does he,so why throw sand on his food? why cant u share the fruits of ur labour? how can your race( in this case, Asians) progress w/ such behaviour?" it couldnt be said any better.

i was a thief once. when i was much younger. and i had no idea the impact of my misbehaviour to the victim.not until i faced it myself. what happens if the money you stolen from was meant to save someone's life?

daylight robberies was bad enuf, but threatening their lives? a man was stabbed in result of a foiled robbery last year.right in the doorstep of Malaysia. WOW!! that must be some kind of a welcome. Please, i'm sure there are other means of earning a living....

Saturday, March 04, 2006
when girls get together......






me and dear went to esplanade afterwards to test my cam.. learning shutter speeds (i've yet to learn aperture stuff...).. enjoy the pix ppl, its everyday i get to see the seagaters hang their hair loose.. hahah...:P

so..so scandalous!!!








there was a small gathering yesterday intially, just to have breakfast 2gether but eventually we went to karaoke...(party world in woodlands civic center). all hell break loose man!! i mean if the pictures were anything to go by...lol.. smuggling alcoholic drinks...then wild dancing....then groping... damn..one of the craziest party i went to.. and took lots of pix as remembrance...i sure hope there'll be another one coming...