a lot of things haf been gg thru my mind lately.
but nothing has been jotted down.
i miss those days.
days tt i would doodle, write on my diary.

i still keep my past diaries and when i read back,
i laughed to myself, and sometimes im amazed by how much depth
my thoughts have back then.
now i juz dun think anymore.
i have succumb to the daily busy life of a human.
ive become something ive always wanted to be back then.
a robot.

and then it made me realise again.
what was my dream in life?
at one time it was a professor. haha
funny but true...yeah.

i love sharing knowledge, but i realised i simply do not have the
attention span to study full time neither do i have the patience to teach.

then it brought to another chain of thoughts.
why do i want to study?
why do i wanna get a degree??
a paper qualification?

ive oways loved knowledge.
but i realised getting education is super expensive.
my ultimate goal was psychology.
but many has said "whats the point of pursing a degree that doesnt put food on ur table in the future?"
yes, i dun want to be a psychologist. i juz love to read and understand how or why people do the things they do.
 but since a degree is soooo expensive, u'd hafta make sure its gonna give u back ur money.

is education now a mere investment?
what happen to the "education for knowledge"?
i think greed has corrupted the idea of learning for self improvement.
now, its juz learning how to be rich and flaunt ur money to everyone :P


ok, on the lighter side, i had fun on Halloween!
i know i dun usually review events anymore...
but oh well.... once in a while, why not...
i love de fact tt my besties didnt give up on getting my black wings.
we almost went the entire bugis village but there ws none
i was truly disappointed and i really lost hope,
but their energy really lifted me.
also muz thank vincy for dropping by bugis, for literally stopping the car by the roadside juz to let me c if that last glimpse of hope is still available.

i also love the fact tt vincy was so accomodating to everyone.

HE was the one suggesting to get his company van to drive us all there and back.
HE wanted to join and dress up.
and apparently, HE managed to entertain himself by scaring strangers with his amateur ghost look.
there were ppl actually wanting to take photos WITH him!! hahaha
he is,like, one of DE BEST and most craziest person i know!
and tt is why HES MY BEST FRIEND!
i juz cant imagine my life without him
my life is so complete!!