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Sunday, November 30, 2008
kuda kepang

after werk, i met up with rina to have a looksie at the carles and keith warehouse sale... with vincent tagging along (our driver cum bellboy.. haha or bag slave... :P)

so shiok to see such bargains....
belts @ $3, certain bags @ $10 and shoes lowest @ $9
understandbly a lot of the sizes left was 40-41... clearing stocks la, i guess..
but there's still some gem finds :D

managed to buy one bag...
rina bought a bag and a shoes that seems sooooo matchy matchy!

after dat went to fetch rina's bf from paya lebar mrt and went to eat at the teh tarik coffee shop at the geylang outlet...

almost the same as the one in marsiling :D


anyways, after sending them off to NUH, me and dear went to near my auntie's hse at clementi to go the fish shop, hoping to buy a puffer fish...

imagine our surprise when we got to watch a kuda kepang performance near the badminton court there. frankly, juz behind where we parked our car...lol...

it was a first for dear. he never knew this kinda dance existed so he was kinda excited. but knowing this dance has a 'spirit invoking' horrorness, i was seriously petrified while enjoying the view(yes, there CAN be both!! ahha).

one time, one of the 'horse' came sooooooo darrrrnnnnnnnn near me- he was STARING AT ME - i freaked seh. i was like shivering and my heart was pumping sia. lucky vincent was grabbing me, if not, confirm i run like siao.apparently vincent says these sort of 'things' can sense fear one. and he has been noticing my 'fear' for quite some time. vincent saw him staring at me from a distance liao. but i almost lost it la when he was juz INCHES from me. staring with those scary scary eyes.
aarrghhhh..... he literally went infront of me. tilt his head and looked at me from the corner of his eyes. look elsewhere then look again. looked elsewhere then looked again. damn intimidating rite???

oh well... im here, means i survived the ordeal. lol...
do understand, kuda kepangs are known to chase ppl, ok, like seriously CHASE all over the place :P


my guess is this is the scene where they invoked the horse spirits to take over the dancer's body. i took a video of it, however i shall not show u coz of the miserable qualities, therefore, i decided to searce on youtube for the best example. here's a few




if im not wrong, this one u can see one of the kids kena chased :P



apparently if u wear red, be sure they dun catch sight of u coz they like to chase ppl wearing red apparels.

http://www.fingersdontfing.com/2008/03/18/the-mystique-of-kuda-kepang/


vincent so excited. coz it was a first for him. glad he saw it then. :D

Sunday, November 23, 2008
Lily and David's holy matrimony

Lily and David's holy matrimony

cute la they both.one is a myanmar, the other chinese PRC and then get married in sg... sooo cute... haha.. this was ages ago but i finally managed to post it up 2day...














































the exchanging of vows

kissing moment









we tried... we really did.... kanna kicked out... wahahhaahha... no la.. j/k.























































table pictures!!












the proper way of holding the chinese cup of tea, my friend!!




















i can oni eat the peanuts...
the malay/halal dishes...
i so damn paiseh la... coz i cannot eat the chinese food rite, my friend especially requested that i was served only halal food. so my dishes was the most special on the table!! hehe...









i kept apologising to her for being troublesome, but being the great friend that she is, she tried to accomodate to my special needs.. i thank her... i thank to all the ppl out there who are tolerant of other religions. thumbs up ppl.... those are juz one step away from peace :D
cheng tng!! one of my fav dessert. and lookie dat!! heart shaped papaya.... awesomeness laaaaa
special wedding dares... haha my friend forced the newly weds to eat the (in my humble opinion) most disgusting tasting berries.
lily!








werking life has been making me super tired lately...
it wasnt the workload, it was the werking hours...
i mean, i wake up 545am every morn and slp ard 10-11pm every nite...
my friend, if u havent count, thats like over 12 hrs, seh.
and every single day summore... except sundays la...
now i know why ppl oways say sunday is rest day... not recreational day...
sigh.... u'd be tooo tired to do anything actually.
recep was fun. ad-hoc duties are fun...
but recording everything done is one heck of a job.
like i said, i shall strive.
i will NOT gif up unless they sack me...
hear that????
i.wont.gif.up!

Monday, November 17, 2008
finally

finally...






finally!






FINALLY!!









OOHHH.... MY, a great big boulder has been lifted off my shoulder...






finally!






(ok, i've said enuf... u get my point...)






but seriously... i was really been lazing ard lately



the most no. of interviews i went to was actually prolly less than 5...



and everyone was like "so, have u found a job yet???"



so stress la...






on a heavy note, my salary is low...



very very very low...



i dun even dare to quote higher considering im prolly competing for ppl with much more exp than me for the job.



what i care more rite now.... = exp exp exp...



coz no exp = harder to find job.. sigh...






i guess i juz have to live my life in a super tight budget now.



super super tight budget...









i know ive been repeating quite a lot of words now



but i juz wanna point out how relieved i am to find a job no matter how measly the pay is.



i dun care....



i know it wont stay that way long.



and i mite haf to actually cut down on a lot of spenditures now.



my salary is undeniably low... i cant even begin to imagine how much will be left for me after



they cut the cpf... :( oh so sad...






its ok...



after the rain... always the rainbow rite???









wish me luck me.... i nid it...






i shall persevere :D












p/s : the pictures taken when we had breakfast at kfc with my ex-colleagues.






atendees, kak anita, kak hazlina and wenny









wenny will be leaving for australia melbourne to werk there...



im sooo darn happy and excited for her...



but oso sad lor... coz i will definitely miss her a lot!!



i will miss her company :D



















yes.... i made EVERYONE try out the crazy specs...
i tell u, i gif no mercy!
i shall compile them all up and post it here again... so shoik la...

Sunday, November 09, 2008
tambuah mas

OMG... i am soooo excited for david cook.... i am not afraid 2 admit that i am soooo gonna buy his debut album...:D excited larrrr

that... and the upcoming movies Madagascar 2, twilight...hannah montana...

a very cool awesome looking stop motion video of cooking spaghetti... creative sia...i wish i am too..



dear driving his friend, weikang's pickup lorry...
i sitting on the passenger seat enjoying the big view... nice la.. but bumpy ride... makes me feelll ssso darn rugged...



Some of the fun things i saw on webbie...
i'm telling u, seriously, my vocabulary is getting thinner and thinner by the day... i cant even describe a simple thing in a concise manner... sigh.... and awesome is my fav word ok... so dun be beating me abt it :P


this lego cake.... is a wedding cake... yesh... the couple had a lego theme going on for their wedding and dont it juz look damn awesome.... i think most of it is edible la.. perhaps except for the human lego figure(construction werkers)
and this... people.... is a child's bed... it costs ALOT to buy one ok... so u'd haf 2 either be a real deal princess or happen to haf one hell of a rich daddy
a looking gud chair/sofa... i juz think its creative lor...(loving the black one)

oooohhhh... i cant describe how cool this looks... damn unique la..

with yensan at the max brenner chocolate bar


roaarrrrrr
yen san with my specs
beautiful water landscape,fountain thingy... :P
marina square


Secret Recipe at IMM... with my family for my mom's bday :D





Went to Tambuah Mas Restaurant @ Paragon to celebrate Rina's bday. it was quite a nice place... the tahu telor and chendol deserves sum mention... they were deli.....cious! (we ordered coz it was recommended anyway :P)

-satay kambing... chewy... meaty(they're NOT stingy... not fats AT ALL..or maybe we were juz damn lucky la... ahhha)... nice peanut sauce... not muz... but shud try :D
-fried udang with sambal(belachan maybe) sambal darn spicy... lips burning after eating but of course spicy = nice
-sayur lodeh ... it was our last resort coz rest of dishes are dry... so wanted sth with gravy.. at least not bland :D
-chicken with special spice..(i know there's a name for it...:P but i cant remember, plus i think my aunty from batam cooks this better :D heeee)
-tahu telor(ordered coz high recommended) muz eat while hot... crispy egg thing and tahu oso nice... sambal kicap not a lot... so we asked for more.... soo acoomodating they all hehe. anyway more sambal=more nicer ma... the sambal was sweet and spicy too.

Rina with her bday cake... raspberry cheesecake from coffee bean. the manager was nice enuf to serve it up on a plate... and THEN providing us small plates and spoons to eat it with... smart and initiative manager....(coz upon reaching i juz told them to help me 'jaga' the thing until i ask for it... ahaah.) see they even put a small candle(i didnt provide)....with fire!!! great service!
the menu. look like wayang kulit seh
me and my problematic eyes...and my thick chunky arms... i NID 2 WERK OUT!! sigh
rina and jiesi
the starter.or sth like dat.. ahha... keropok brinjal(i think) and sugared peanuts...(i swear 2 u! it was soft! it almost- ALMOST melts in ur mouth... not that soft soft kind but those that is not too hard on the teeth la.. like, soft with a hint of crunch!)



our varied colour dressing... awesome! rainbow...
chendol (sweet and nice i think) and avocado (thick and creamy... like yoghurt texture)
the chicken thing
at coffee club for dessert and chat sessions
outside paragon

cat eyes
rabbit ears and cat eyes =mutant
roooaaarrrrrr
iced passion fruit tea
this was one of the nice ones of the day. chocolate syrup bottom,milk,chocolate, vanilla ice cream and cinammon powder. niceeeee




mine taste nutty
rina's was nice too. the chocolate round things was actually ultra small biscuits covered in chocolate... served with whipped cream too... its iced chocolate mint if im nt wrong and it tastes great... one of the nice one there too!

us with out drinks


rina with her prezzie... im telling u, rina, u'd better strike off that perfume from ur wishlist or u will be receiving another year supply of it!! hahaa... gift wrapping done by awesome jiesi... looks pro rite??
cute paper bag that comes with the prezzie




on a solemn note... after going to a few wrong(i think so) interviews for office bound jobs, i realised that i am soooooo not ready for that kind of line.
one. i am nervous. two. i always fail at interviews(low low LOW confidence). three. no experience what so ever. four. no qualifications whatsoever.
sumtimes, i think i'm juz a failure in life... i always make the wrong decisions... impulsive and wrong decisions... nothing is planned.. they're like juz random actions that my mind always seem to concoct. so sad rite...
disappointingly, i mite haf to resort going back to operator line and then going up from there (not like i haf any other choice).
sigh.... i will get there.
i know i will.