"before darkness emerged you spoke to me
love
of love
of life
then
of death
by death you walked
by death enlightened..."
-confusedain '99
+ Dissect +
Lorelai: It was a mistake.
Emily: A mistake?! You call that a mistake!?
Lorelai: Well, I tried calling it "Al", but it would only answer to "mistake".
+ Me +
Longing for an eternal union
+ Desires +
+ firstly to find myself
+ 10 days trip to Europe, esp Spain
+ Santorini, Greece
+ The Chocolate Buffet at Fullerton Hotel
+ experience snow
+ Work Overseas
+ A very healthy body...and mind
+ a tv set in my bedroom
+ a lomo
+ donate blood at least once in a lifetime
+ be a volunteer
+ Things I've been said i look like +
chinese(NO.1)
japanese
taiwanese(!! lol)
phillippino
thai
myanmar
cambodian
vietnamese
indonesian(specifically, indo maid!)
malaysian
nepalese
China Chinese (NO!!!...)
You may not be her first, her last, or her only. She loved before she may love again. But if she loves you now, what else matters? She's not perfect, you aren't either, and the two of you may never be perfect together but if she can make you laugh, cause you to think twice, and admit to being human and making mistakes, hold onto her and give her the most you can. She may not be thinking about you every second of the day, but she will give you a part of her that she knows you can break her heart. So don't hurt her, don't change her, don't analyze and don't expect more than she can give. Smile when she maked you happy, let her know when she makes you mad, and miss her when she's not there. -Bob Marley.
How do you let go of someone you love someone you dont hate not angry at. someone tt has never done majorly wrong to you?
Why does God create such a weird and cruel rule to tear us apart? Why do we have to be of the same religion and culture before we can be 2gether in peace? What do i want? Why cant i make a decision and be happy about it? Why doesnt God give me the strength to bear through this?
What happened tt day. The things tt was said. Did it matter? i only wanted wat was best for you. apparently the best wasnt me.
Should i just listen to what others say and let go of you?
Why would they say its a waste of time? When all the time spent with you were all worth it? Why cant i keep the only happiness in my life? I've always knew tt we were gg to be apart some day. why not tt day? shouldnt i be prepared for it?
Should i beg and plead for a reunion or should i just learn to be alone again?
last time someone managed to help me think otherwise.
now, im back to hating it again.
my birth is a curse.
every year on 12 jan something big happen, either to someone close to me or me. and that something big usually means big bad news.
i've always thought in order to save my close ones from being hurt, i wouldnt celebrate my bday. wats the bug fuss anyway? juz a day i was born. maybe that was the mistake. when i was born.
Just found out from my mom yesterday one of my uncle was diagnosed with a stage 2 lymphoma cancer. He is currently undergoing a few chemo sessions and he is going to be sick and weak for these period of times. Somtimes i wonder why God does the thing He does. Why am i NOT the one getting this? Why dont i be the one getting the cancer?
He has a wife and 3 kids.A family that needs him.Yet i who have nothing is perfect healthy. i, who sometimes, is ungrateful to God, ungrateful to life. And yet i have nothing in me that is potentially fatal.
Why cant i be the one taken away from this world instead of him?
