"before darkness emerged you spoke to me
love
of love
of life
then
of death
by death you walked
by death enlightened..."
-confusedain '99
+ Dissect +
Lorelai: It was a mistake.
Emily: A mistake?! You call that a mistake!?
Lorelai: Well, I tried calling it "Al", but it would only answer to "mistake".
+ Me +
Longing for an eternal union
+ Desires +
+ firstly to find myself
+ 10 days trip to Europe, esp Spain
+ Santorini, Greece
+ The Chocolate Buffet at Fullerton Hotel
+ experience snow
+ Work Overseas
+ A very healthy body...and mind
+ a tv set in my bedroom
+ a lomo
+ donate blood at least once in a lifetime
+ be a volunteer
+ Things I've been said i look like +
chinese(NO.1)
japanese
taiwanese(!! lol)
phillippino
thai
myanmar
cambodian
vietnamese
indonesian(specifically, indo maid!)
malaysian
nepalese
China Chinese (NO!!!...)
Funny kind of weird yet not so scary but very thankful
hahahhaha....
the other day(abt a month back) when i joined the meeting for the specialist outpatient clinic (soc) party,
i heard that there is gonna be a hiphop performance.and the dancers are confirmed.
in my mind i was wondering how cool it was to be dancing hiphop
and how was the dance was going to be like.
and i didnt mentioned this to anyone, of course. coz i wasnt familiar with anyone of them.
funny rite, how God plans.
coz yesterday 2 of the members approached me
asking if i wanna join the grp coz last min one of the girls had to back out.
funny riteeee??? i dun even know them sia.
God moved them to ask me.
seeing the opportunity of course i didnt say no!
hahaha... then they told me
we'll be practicing every tues and thurs
whats the amazing part?
every mon wed and fri is my schling days.
God made it perfect for me!!
tues and thurs is the oni time im free in a week!
am i excited? darn rite i am!!
its been a long time since i danced in front of an audience.
a large audience no less!!
wat a great way to know the rest of the people here better :D
plus id be dancing hiphop! my fav kind of dance.
and i'd be exercising!!
and id be boosting my confidence... yeah...
im letting out my fireworks, y'all!!!
hahha... okok too much liao. shall stop here.
halloween here i cooommmeeeeee!!! weeeee....
expect lotsa pix ok?
even if i dun look great at least i will post pix of all my beautiful friends :D
Do you ever feel like a plastic bag
Drifting through the wind
Wanting to start again
Do you ever feel, feel so paper thin
Like a house of cards
One blow from caving in
Do you ever feel already buried deep
Six feet under scream
But no one seems to hear a thing
Do you know that there's still a chance for you
Cause there's a spark in you
You just gotta ignite the light
And let it shine
Just own the night
Like the Fourth of July
Cause baby you're a firework
Come on show 'em what your worth
Make 'em go "Oh, oh, oh!"
As you shoot across the sky-y-y
Baby you're a firework
Come on let your colors burst
Make 'em go "Oh, oh, oh!"
You're gunna leave 'em fallin' down-own-own
You don't have to feel like a waste of space
You're original, cannot be replaced
If you only knew what the future holds
After a hurricane comes a rainbow
Maybe you're reason why all the doors are closed
So you can open one that leads you to the perfect road
Like a lightning bolt, your heart will blow
And when it's time, you'll know
You just gotta ignite the light
And let it shine
Just own the night
Like the Fourth of July
Cause baby you're a firework
Come on show 'em what your worth
Make 'em go "Oh, oh, oh!"
As you shoot across the sky-y-y
Baby you're a firework
Come on let your colors burst
Make 'em go "Oh, oh, oh!"
You're gonna leave 'em fallin' down-own-own
Boom, boom, boom
Even brighter than the moon, moon, moon
It's always been inside of you, you, you
And now it's time to let it through
Cause baby you're a firework
Come on show 'em what your worth
Make 'em go "Oh, oh, oh!"
As you shoot across the sky-y-y
Baby you're a firework
Come on let your colors burst
Make 'em go "Oh, oh, oh!"
You're gonna leave 'em goin "Oh, oh, oh!"
Boom, boom, boom
Even brighter than the moon, moon, moon
Boom, boom, boom
Even brighter than the moon, moon, moon
my new fav song!! sooo inspiring!! and the music video is damn awesome laaaaaaa.......
this is the 6th times i've had nosebleed...
so often that its starting to be a nuisance :P
first, was when i was bathing.
i think i rubbed my nose to hard...
enough to cause nosebleed hahah :P
then weeks later i had nosebleed again,
when i was out with kim..
on the mrt summore... w/ ppl staring at me :P
then another few weeks later i bath, i kena again...
muz be i rub my nose too hard again la...
then i consulted my bro. he said nothing to worry.
if bleeding persist for 15 min then can be alarm.
then when i started working in sgh,
sumwhere mid sept i nosebleed at werk.
i suspect too cold coz the aircon tt time was super strong.
this week about few days ago i nosebleed again.
i blame the cold again...bloody aircon.
then juz now when i wash my face, i nosebleed.
AGAIN...
damn irritating leh!! i think my nose blood vessel or watever thing inside is spoiled oredy.
i keep having nosebleed since.....july or august like dat!this year!
considering my bro said there is no cause for alarm
i know i have nothing to worry.
i have no nausea, no dizziness, no feeeling of weakness or pain in any kind.
but then again... 6 times leh.
its not like bleed abit abit like poke pimple bleed like dat.
when i bath it keeps running down my face! and i keep rinsing it!
then when it happened when im not bathing, i can oni stop it by
looking funny having a roll of tissue paper stuck in my nostril...
if i lift my chin up (like what most people adviced) i'd be choking on my own
nose blood.
i wonder if i really shud be concern... anyway... i promised vincent if it happens
again within this 2 weeks, that means end of oct, i will go and consult doctor.
my friend say i look thinner and fairer now...
damn happy can!!
hehe! actually i not thin until like wat la...
but im glad im losing weight.
no easy feat lor!
and for some funny reason, i started splurging on things recently...
for thing whole week i've bought myself 5 dresses in total.
yes! crazy rite? dun worry, they are not boutique sorts.
one bought from pasar mlm, $18, three bought from little india, 2 is $10 and one $15, the last one at the john little sale for $11.90. shiok sia...
yesterday oni dress, shoes, hair band.
4 undergarments at $15 each,cheap considering its pierre cardin, mind you!
very pretty patterns summore!
oh.. retail therapy. soooo sinful.
due to this impulsive spendings, i am now left with NOTHING (!!) to spent on liao.
sigh.
nvm la... i can NOT eat... juz go home eat or tabao lor.
if i can fast, this is chicken feet!
who knows? my target weight of 50kg may reach sooner than i tot?
(dream on... its ME! who am i kidding sia :P)
in aug i mentioned tt i was 15kg heavier since joining gb.
guess what???
i've lost 8kg!!! woohoooo... amazing right???
all thanks to the holy month, Ramadan.
i intend to lose another 7kg, which will be my weight b4 joining gb.
but my ultimate goal is to actually be at the weight when i was the lightest, 50kg.
that is hard work, coz the first few kg is oways easy to lose coz its mostly water.
to get to 50, i hafta exercise often.
can u imagine, the torture i have to go thru juz to be 50??
i can never be thin or slim. its oways average, moderate or m size.
sigh.
