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Friday, December 24, 2010
xmas makes me fat!!!

xmas makes me fat!! its either dat or i have poor self restraints!!
omg! the temptations!
we were given log cake, amazing durian puff, and even walnut cake!!
from patients!
then the cinicians mostly gave choccies! lots of them!
merci,chocolate wafers from europe ( i think) guylian... to name a few.
fattening!!!

then on the eve we had a last min xmas potluck party at our kitchen.
it was amazing! my mom cooked chicken curry. they say nice! hehe... of course!
look at my size! :P

anyway, im super jealous la.
my bro bought my sis an ukelele.
i want one too!!! ahah... j/k.
we can share la... i think i oso wana learn ukelele la.
i wanna learn to play it so tt i can sing songs to it,
compose masterpieces out of it, post on youtube
and become the next internet sensation!
daydreaming rite, me??
dun even have THE voice, still dare dream... hahaha

but the thought of it fun la!!!
new year means new things rite??

oooh! i cant wait man! tooooo excited!
anyway, i've made my choice,
imma choose option one!!
yes!! so i can do it with rina!!
dancing may be my passion,
but i think socialising is what i need the most to built character.
:D

p/s: oh the dance was fun! i made a lot of mistakes.
sometimes too slow, sometimes damn fast.
its like i nvr dance to the rhythm..
aiyoh!! terrible sia...
but heck care la!
i was having too much fun! ahhaha :P i was mad laughing at some point while i was dancing.
i look like im on high ...blueeekkk
we were dancing to sweet dreams and wore the silver mask as pictured above.
all participants of the soc party event receive the orange tupperware!

then all the soc party attendees were given door gifts.fantastic! food was good too.
omg. i eat sooo much! i cant stoopppp... pls help!

Tuesday, December 21, 2010
Alhamdullilah

i passed all my exams.
alhamdullilah!!!!
my appreciation for all that have been given to me
has no boundaries.
i truly think it has been nothing but miracle.

so many things tt has happen to me
which i am truly thankful for.

back to the choices.
which one shall i choose??


sigh...

Sunday, December 19, 2010
another great weekend

sat went out w me soc dancers for dance outfit.
it was cool. then i get to spend time w vincent.
tt was gud too.
then me and my family had our traditional yearly
drive thru orchard rd to see the xmas lights.
there are soo much happenings this year!
carol singers...a lot of performances and ppl in costumes!
its very christian oriented event i suppose. coz they sang about jesus.
like as if you're in church, listening to choirs.
yeah...

then sunday is picnic w dad's side family.
fun too.
lot of eating.
and eating.
oh! and eating too...
have i mention eating??

yup.THAT much!
we also discussed about the bday bbq event.

beeday babies wearing pink. and girls wearing flowers on their hair.
and guests wearing blue. awesome rite!!!

there's gonna be decos of blue and pink balloons...
photo cake.


best nyyerrrr.....!!!
i cant wait!

weee......

Wednesday, December 15, 2010
which one shall i choose??

omg! i have sooo many decisions to make!!
im pretty happy with the way my 2010 has turned out so far.
halloween w awesome friends.
my first blood donation.
my many experiences w different kinds of jobs :P
my weight loss.
and 2010 has not even ended yet.
im very thankful w everything tt God has paved for me.
Alhamdullilah.

now. i've gotta choose.
  • my sister say there's still vacancy for the YouthInn volunteer.
  • one of my dance member is asking me to join her malay dance group.
  • and my dance choreographer is asking me to join his crew.his DANCE CREW!!!!

Dear God,
why are u giving me such difficult choices?!
which one shall i choose???
i cant possibly choose all coz i still have studies to go thru.

oh gosh!

Sunday, December 12, 2010
its a bird! its a plane!! no! its a BAT!!!!

i tot sunday was gonna be a mundane day for me.
NEVER would i have thought  sth like this was gonna happen!.

i get to try the new mcbistro chicken burger. it was ok ok.
then i get to eat the "darn good brownie" from mccafe
(which was quite nice actually! served with hot chocolate syrup. soft brownie with sinfully lots of choccies!!)
then i was tempted to buy marshmallows and licorice at mini toons!!
i succumbed to tt temptation (unfortunately)

that was all. i tot tt was the most fun activity im gonna have for 2day.

then juz now as vincent was playing w my bro's lappie in my hse, i saw a shadow
flying around the ceiling of my hse.
i tot it was a fly, i ignored it.
when i had a second look, it was gigantic, i tot it was a butterfly, then i freaked out.
i screamed at vincent saying something is flying in my hse.
when he got a gud look, he said it was a baby bat.
imagine my reaction!! hahaha
i was like screaming almost into tears... hahah
(not scream until so loud la...)
then vincent covered me with a blanket as i got myself into a fetal position.

he grabbed another blanket, trying to cover the baby bat from flying around.
what seem like a few mins later he managed to catch it.
then he put in the shoebox at first. made me call spca and ask what we shud do to it.
the spca guy keep thinking tt we're mistaking the bird as a bat. DUH!

after a while vincent put it in the longkang fishing tank.

dun believe???








weird rite??!!
 see it hanging upside down?


after a while, we went downstairs to release it. apparently bats cant fly from the ground. so vincent set it to the nearest dark tree. at first it wont move. after vincent smoked in front of it, it flew off... weeeeee......

fun rite??? vincent keep shakin his head when he saw my reactions.
hahaha... i was so scared and screamed when i first saw the bat. then when he caught it into the tank i was like a little girl jumping up and down excited as i searched for my hp, so i could take these photos... ahhaha....:P

on a super side note:
eons ago, vincent keeps pointing to the night sky/ trees and told me "there's a bat"
i nvr did believe him coz i was thinking  "singapore, where got bats de?? bird i know la"
then he tell me birds dun fly at nite + birds usually glide + fly. they dun flutter their wings (which bats do)
he keeps saying " bats cant fly stable one. if u see sth flying, but flutter kind, thats a bat."
so i oways keep a look out and sometimes i DO see shadows of them, but never up close.
with God's power, HE actually made a baby bat FLY into my home! funny sia...
wat a dream come true... a great experience, but i dun wanna encounter this again. 
esp if im alone. :P

three awesome days.
fri was the blood donation thing.
sat was the cycling and the repair of dilla's bike,
then today, the bat.

its been awesome.

Weekends has been awesome so far.

this was the time i have to take photos for my godgrandma's event. she has this super furry cat i keep playing with and was not scared to hug it at all :P



the log cake a kind patient shared with us. sinfully yummy! from prima deli.

10 dec 2010.
my first blood donation!! now i can finally strike out one of my desires! free pen! actually i kapok one la... dunno free or not. but they nvr ask for it back... shud be ok ba.... hahaha!
the refreshment they gave me!! i gt a coupon so i choose soya milk (healthiest choice) and low sugared brownie (still not so healthy! ahahah). i mean i was after an hr session at the gym!! i wouldnt want tt effort to be wasted rite??! funnily enuf, i was NOT tired!!! after the blood donation i was not even dizzy! i can safely say i could prolly even dance after it.. altho they mentioned tt it is not advisable la... hahaha even after exercising my blood pressure is only 111/70. low rite?? :P
a cute pink bandage they put on me...
yes!! my first! and nope, it wont be my last. it wasnt as painful as i tot. seriously ppl, eyebrow threading is MUCH MUCH more painful than this. i didnt even teared. and eyebrow threading always cause me to tears.

when i got back hm, i took out the bandage. the blueblack was and still is in fact, awful!!! then i saw another blueblack on my knee. nothing related to the blood donation for the knee of course... but look like same size... hahaha... me and my accident pronessss

this was when i joined rina and dilla for a funfilled cycling nite.
the pictures are not in order :P
upon reaching pasir ris to meet them, they offered me a yoghurt ice cream :D so nice of rina!! hehe!cute rite, the shop name. so damn long! hahha...

this was actually after the cycling session. outside parkway parade i think.
taking pictures at the xmas decoration!! last time we went there it was chinese new year! and we took pictures w those too!! hahah....
at one pt of time, we were taking a breather. rina and dilla went to 7-11 to buy refreshments. while i was waiting for them at a nearby bench. im assuming bcoz of the unstable ground. dilla's bike fell down. we didnt think much of it until when it was time to cycle back, dilla realised her bike doesnt work coz the chain was loose/ dislodged from the gear thing. i gt down and dirty and tried fixing it. first time luck! i managed to fix it. HAH! im a mechanic!!! ahhaha :P my dirty hands after the jump!
this is after cycling we drop by at charco's and have 3 healthy salads!!!


the dirty hands, seee!!!???

dilla happie after bike was fixed. yay!!! dun have to walk all the way back! lol!!!.

tts all folks!

Thursday, December 02, 2010
ive got my priorities straight. do you?

i need.
to stop biting/picking my fingers. especially until they bleed. like this.
new shoes. i am not kidding.
that paper stuck on the soles is so not cool. ahha... but yeah. people's shoes get worn out. mine gets broken. into two parts?? lol.. i wonder how i walk sia... i muz have tiptoe a lot lol...but then again this is nothing sia. you should see my last time army boots. gets broken too! and u know how hard the soles of an army boot is!! lol...

so no. i dont want a new shoe. i NEED one! :P

sat i mite be gg longkang fishing.long time nvr play dat oredy. and on sun i have a simple photography assignment for my godgrandma. khatam Quran and nasyid thing...hmmm....