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Sunday, September 04, 2011
intuition

yesterday my intuition went on an overdrive.
as we were driving along the roads of ang mo kio, a vision of my past ran across my head.
i remember there's this house i used to always visit when i was young but somehow stopped ever since i went sec sch. of all the years went by, it didnt occur to me except yesterday.the view from the house was very vivid. but i had no idea where this place is and how this person is related to us. i mentioned this to my cousins and sister. i simply couldnt describe the view.

and as i was reminiscing about it, i was also looking out the window. i saw a house with very bright festive lights (lampu kelap-kelip, as i used to call it, hahaha).it really stood out and i said to myself " wah, so bright sia... the whole of his corridor is colourfully lighted."


this is the funny part. lo and behold!! when i reach the house, i realised it was the EXACT same house i noticed as we were driving by!!! amazing, lol...



then as we were leaving the house, heading for another juz a block away, my bro suddenly say " we long time nvr to that brother house, the one with the star wars". i had no idea who he was refering to. i was like, which brother seh. then my mom say...ooohh.... that "abg taufik house". that name click in my brain sia. suddenly i was like " ehhh!!! yeah that house!! i was juz thinking about it, he stay very far right?? we long time nvr go seh!!" imagine my surprise when my mom say, the house is here only lor. one floor above the next hse we gg to. apparently my dad and uncle has been trying to call them to no avail, so decided to go ahead and knock on the door, try our luck.
i cant believe it!! it REALLY was the house i was thinking of. funny seh.i went over to the corridor and looked out.the exact same view i had in my mind when i was in the van earlier. im not close to the family at all... and even the auntie say she remember my name, but the last time we visited her was almost 20 yrs ago!!


then she scold my uncle and dad for losing contact. lol... she said that night, earlier, she saw 2 butterflies in her bedroom. she was wondering why. coz in the olden days, they say, when a butterfly flies into ur home, it means someone is coming to your house. mcm ader sign pulak. she was surprised to see my dad and uncle and everybody else... heheh!!


cant believe how fated we are to be there and how mindboggling it is for me to have almost seen the future. lol!!!