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Sunday, January 22, 2012
Resolution

There is no coincidence in Islam.
There are too much instances in my life that truly testify in the above statement.

Quite a few things have been happening in my life.
i was brought up independantly.
i learn things the hard way, i wasnt really guided as a child.

my parents dont call on me whenever im still not home even after 10pm,
during my secondary school days.
they dont lecture me when i dont clean my room/house.
they dont nag at me when i dont do my prayers.
they dont scold me when i dont study.

i learn by making mistakes.
i learn from other people.

at such a vulnerable age when i can be so easily
influenced to do the wrong things, why didnt i?
why wasnt i a rebel?

last year, i experienced closeness.
yes. im actually afraid of that.
i became close to my 4life family.
i learn how to bond.

this year, i learn to be strong.
if ive never known how strong i can be,
this year i will find out.
this is also the year i will learn how to express love to my family.

Allah has let me practice,expressing love to my 4life family first
and now i can show to my parents and my siblings.

my family has gone through alot.
some things i would never say.
but from these things i learn.
i learn how unappreciative ive been towards my parent my WHOLE life.
i learn how blind i was towards my parents needs
i learn how proud they were of me.
i also learn how never to give up.
in these events, i learn how strong my brother was and how much burden he carried when it should have been me.
most importantly, i learn to change myself.

This year will be a year of change.
a year i will start being a better person.
spending more time caring for my parents.
spending more time, overcoming my fears.
spending more time learning about Islam.


Spending more time in 4life, because 4life has taught me all these.
it has taught me positivity, it has taught me patience.
Many things happened that was due to 4life.
it is like a catalyst that causes good chain of events.



i hope everyone will benefit from 4life.
its not about the business, its not about the product, its not about the company.
(although everything about it is amazing beyond comparison)
its about how you can use this to change your life.