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Wednesday, February 22, 2006
its sad....so sad

up until now, i havent learn the art of gossiping for i rarely indulge.i'd rather much suffer in silence...or if i cant keep quiet, i let my body do the work( tho i seldom do self-mutilation nowadays).i witnessed gossiping at its worst... i mean whats so great abt insulting that other's weaknesses? so that u get to hide urs? or to make urself feel more superior? why gossip if you can just stop it all by confiding that other? why call her stupid if u can simply advice her to go back to sch so she wont be stupid anymore? if u dun want her to bother u anymore then say so! tell it to her face! or ure' just simply scared? so u'd rather gather around all your allies and start jeering at her/him? it doesnt make sense...if u know u're in the good side, then why spoil it by gossiping?

u've already ridiculed her in front of ur comrades then u mocked her english? damn! she's already tried her best...really.. if you can converse very well in english it doesnt mean you're far superior than me. just because u know what love means doesnt mean i dunno what "cinta" means... they have the same meaning only in different language.just because u know how to fish doesnt mean she doesnt know how to "memancing", still the same meaning in different languange.ok i've made my point. u may be good at some things but not everything. so what u know western calligraphy... she knows chinese calligraphy... so are u more artistic?

and so whassup with branded goods? with $500 u can only afford a salvatore ferragamo top, while with the same amt i could stock up my wadrobe with great bargains that looks good too...i dun need a guess halter top. when i can get the exact same design at Toa Payoh cheaper price...i dun haf to buy a burberry wallet and then publicise to everyone that i've own one. maybe thats why ppl bragged abt owning them... coz they're paying for the attention... not the quality or design... so sad... oh so sad.maybe it doesnt hurt much if u're rich but if u're acting like one, wont ur pocket hurt eventually? or is it really worth it? i say these but doesnt mean i dun buy them either, i own some but i dun display them for acceptance. i love all my friends so i dun understand why they still need to do this... i dun spend my money on luxurious things all the time. i'm pretty poor really.. so why telling me all these? magazines are seriously corrupting my peers' mind...they think every girl needs to go for facials whether they need to or not, every girl needs to own an aldo stilettoes, every girl needs to have at least two chanel top and one gucci sunnies in their wardrobe... like i said, if u're rich why not? if once in a while indulging why not? but obsessed? ~sigh.... maybe i'm supposed to feel inferior coz i dont spend like the rich, coz i'm bad in english and my qualifications only ends in o levels... yeah... and maybe i'm feeling inferior thats why i ahve to write all these to rest assure myself that i'm not?