i dun wanna be...
a murderer...(rihanna)


did u eva haf one of those daes whereby ur brain just went haywire?
like being out of character?...its strange
those madness moments.
i'm assuming i was this close to being psychotic.
you saw a girl...
nothing out of the ordinary
u noticed she was wearing a miniskirt...
ans she's sitting crossed-legged in front of you...then
you had the sudden urge to touch her thighs...suddenly u wanna noe
how she feels like...tastes like...your curiousity becoming unbearable
you almost have to hold on to ur seat just to restrain yourself
and just as suddenly .. the moment stopped
you've regained composure and wondered where the hell that came from...

that was my moment.one of, that is...(erm... no... that girl wasnt that attractive... i've better looking friends)it makes me think of those offenders.
y'noe... rapists.murderers.thieves.for a while my mind was walking in their shoes
scary.were they aware?did they succumb willingly? everybody have crazy thoughts
done outrageous things. but what made them lose it?

maybe there's a fine line btwn insanity and sin...i'm not a pagan but i believe in the power of the cosmic.ur brain is made up of thousands of chemicals and what if at that funny moment... ur brain stopped pumping that special element....you
become uncontrollable... then... u simply snapped...
before u knew it, blood... on your hands(or shit...in some cases...)
dun believe? why then people becomes intoxicated after abusing drugs?
chemicals affect you... physically... and emotionally...
eh?? why am i talking abt brains now? where was i??
oh yeah...
confusing how life can be...
i was crazy... am still crazy...not enuf to cause grievous bodily harm to others...but at some point i understand what they must haf gone thru... coz after all... i'm a human...i get angry, i desire...sometimes i indulge...but to judge ppl for their mistakes...~sigh...

hmm...i've said all these but i sill hate people that enjoy hurting others...enjoy... thats beyond sick... they noe its wrong but still do it...damn them in hell!!! oh well...
thats my theory for 2dae folks :D

and something has been bugging me quite a while now... my eng sucks... i nid to noe... biasness based on race is racism.... biasness based on religion leh?...relism?? ahaha :P ok.. seriously... what was it?