a deep sense of melancholy
sets in
as songs of the festive season
rang in the air
it sounds beautifully haunting
faintly reminiscing my childhood atmosphere
weird.
it has this hollow emptiness sensation
i've yet to understand
sadness
as if my heart was disappearing to oblivion
why sad?
its a festive season after all rite?
maybe its not sadness
none of the negative thoughts...
maybe i'm confusing it w/ sth else
that i have not expressed before?
hmm... what could it be?
nostalgia??
blurry scratchy silent
films
running thru your mind
in sepia tone
oh how lovely it is.

selamat hari raya
to all my muslim friends
one month we had endured...
exercising our self-control
from indulging
physically mentally and psychologically
and we made it! yay!

i'm 21 now
suddenly i have this deep sentimental appreciation
for raya...
its a day... to celebrate the victory of mind and soul over matter
to those that made the most of it benefited most
for those who didnt... well... too bad then...
aah... i'm crying... hahah....
wow.... i've nvr been one to be soo emotional...
am i maturing/?? lol.... strange!