"before darkness emerged you spoke to me
love
of love
of life
then
of death
by death you walked
by death enlightened..."
-confusedain '99
+ Dissect +
Lorelai: It was a mistake.
Emily: A mistake?! You call that a mistake!?
Lorelai: Well, I tried calling it "Al", but it would only answer to "mistake".
+ Me +
Longing for an eternal union
+ Desires +
+ firstly to find myself
+ 10 days trip to Europe, esp Spain
+ Santorini, Greece
+ The Chocolate Buffet at Fullerton Hotel
+ experience snow
+ Work Overseas
+ A very healthy body...and mind
+ a tv set in my bedroom
+ a lomo
+ donate blood at least once in a lifetime
+ be a volunteer
+ Things I've been said i look like +
chinese(NO.1)
japanese
taiwanese(!! lol)
phillippino
thai
myanmar
cambodian
vietnamese
indonesian(specifically, indo maid!)
malaysian
nepalese
China Chinese (NO!!!...)
seagate's gonna have plant shutdown from 15 june all da way to 22 june... 7 days ppl!!!! 7 days to bbburrrrnnnnnnnnnnnn....
1- i am absolutely broke 2-to go on a hols is super ex, since its sch hols 3-my closest friends would be werkin these daysss... 4-vincent werkin oso...
ssoooo..... lists of disadvantagesss.....
oh well...
anyways... i tot i mite wanna go on a photo trip... juz to places in sg... ahha considering my budget... or what looks like it...
i was thinking of taking free photography classes... sths wrong sumwhere.... doesnt sound quite rite... oh of course... WHERE THE HELL CAN I GET FREE LESSONS??? eeekkkk.... delusional... so young yet sooo... pitiful....
but oh well... i hope i get what i PLANNED for...
any models wannabe... sms me... i'd be elated...seriously...
i'm getting fat too... juz so u know...
sick of ppl pinching my arms and stomach... FAT IS GUD OK!!!! its like cushion....or stress ball!!! and ppl say LOOKS DUN MATTER??? YEAH RITE!!!!
If our love was a fairy tale I would charge in and rescue you On a yacht baby we would sail To an island where we’d say I do
And if we had babies they would look like you It’d be so beautiful if that came true You don’t even know how very special you are
[Chorus]
You leave me breathless You’re everything good in my life You leave me breathless I still can’t believe that you’re mine You just walked out of one of my dreams So beautiful you’re leaving me Breathless
And if our love was a story book We would meet on the very first page The last chapter would be about How I’m thankful for the life we’ve made
And if we had babies they would have your eyes I would fall deeper watching you give life You don’t even know how very special you are
You leave me breathless You’re everything good in my life You leave me breathless I still can’t believe that you’re mine You just walked out of one of my dreams So beautiful you’re leaving me
You must have been sent from heaven to earth to change me You’re like an angel The thing that I feel is stronger than love believe me You’re something special I only hope that I’ll one day deserve what you’ve given me But all I can do is try Every day of my life
You leave me breathless You’re everything good in my life You leave me breathless I still can’t believe that you’re mine You just walked out of one of my dreams So beautiful you’re leaving me Breathless
You leave me breathless You’re everything good in my life You leave me breathless I still can’t believe that you’re mine You just walked out of one of my dreams So beautiful you’re leaving me Breathless
yeaterday i went to city square cinema @ JB to watch 2 movies (no less!!)
first up was ironman... it was pretty cool, the action started pretty fast, and i tot robert was kinda funny. tho he was a bit old, and she (love interest/secetary) was kinda normal looking. but the scipt's witty and well, the whole effects thing...wow... technology...
best part, would have to be the glowing thing in his chest... some reactor thingy.. :P oh! and it only cost me RM5(cos i watched the morning show). awesome...
what happens in vegas was a romantic comedy...
frankly,i wouldnt choose to watch this show, if it wasnt for my friends... not that i was reluctant, but i expected it to be super cheesy/lame/predictable...(i was skeptical but hell, it was only RM10... nutin hurts...)
it WAS a bit predictable, esp the ending part... (they'd HAFTA fall in love any other way at the end... that what MOST romantic comedy movies ever happens... it HAFTA HAF a happy ending rite??? :P) but it was the progession of it that was funny! the whole theatre was laughing at their funny antics. it really wasnt that witty, the script, but oh my god, the unpredictable things they do to each other lol...
--> and finally, my most fav of them all (coz they remind me A LOT of calvin and hobbes... uber cool, i tell u!!) ozyandmillie
juz go to their archive if u wanna see more... coz these comics are updated very not-so-often. haha
lastly, there are obv. more that what i've mentioned but you can check them out at ur own timing, i havent even read all of them, these are the oni few i've read and caught on... so people... be obsessed!
-on a slightly sad note, yesterday vincent's car's tayar pancit (flat tyre) sooo funny(for me). lucky at petrol station, then got some super nice uncles helping dear out (to change tyre... it aint easy job, i tell you!). then when he got to his grandma hse, he accidentally called out for his late uncle, unwittingly caused the whole family to cry... :P amusing... sad but amusing.
then 2dae, one of his driver's vehicle overturned... now in hospital... so drama rite? these past few days... how to keep up like this??
life... oh life..... oooohhhh.... life..... (singing des'ree song 'life' ...the chorus part only)
yeah, those uncles and young asses that stops at the accident car to catch the car plate no. so they can bet on 4D. i tell u what u bloody people, i HOPE u get to cash in BIG sum of it, and then, when u got rich, ur children will spend it all up. they will fight among each other for the biggest share. and once the cash stop flowing, ur pretty daughters would have to sell themselves to keep up to their old lifestyle.they'd would carry gucci bags in the morning, chiko peks in the nights.hell, ur sons?? they sooo rich what?? so of course like typical dastards they are (like father like son ma, rite??) they'd spend their cash on booze and philandering.what a wonderful rich life u'll get, yeah.
i pity the whole of ur ancestry...
i am sooooooooooooo pissed rite now. when vincent told me everyone was talking abt his late uncle. asking questions(number related) so they can buy 4D. insensitive shits arent they?? my bf JUZ mourned over his death (its only been 6 days). and this??!! my bf wasnt angry...(God bless his super gud soul) but he kinda tweaked the numbers abit, eg, time of death, instead of 0221hrs, he told them 0314hrs (times have been changed, juz an example). hah!!! and again, i'd say hah!!! i bet vincent would be amused reading this, but i dun care, i hate it means i hate it, u dun haf to be angry, but i can and i will, and i will curse all those insensitive dastards for all i care!!!. i dun curse a lot, so this means a lot to me.
everytime i think abt his plight i would cry, he wouldnt know, coz i didnt say it. if he dun even want to cry in front of me, why should i??if he can be strong, why cant i?
when i consulted my friend abt it, i would cry. when i think abt him and what happened i would cry. i juz wish there was sth i could. sth that could change the current state of everything.the whole thing is so sudden and final it would take a long time to adjust.maybe he think i wasnt affected (i wouldnt know, i didnt tell him either...i cant show it to him). but i am. to listen to his life, past and present, i'm too scared to wonder abt the future, but future is what he haf to think abt.
pern pern(2 and a half yrs now) is fatherless. her mom hasnt werk for years. and all they can think abt is 4D?? arghhhh!!!! really... why do such people STILL exist?? why are THEY still alive??
This is for my peoples Who just lost somebody Your best friend, your baby Your man or your lady Put your hand way up high We will never say bye No, no, no
Mamas, daddys, sisters, brothers Friends and cousins This is for my peoples Who lost their grandmothers Lift your head to the sky Cause we will never say bye
As a child there were them times I didn't get it But you kept me in line I didn't know why You didn't show up sometimes On Sunday mornings and I missed you But I'm glad we talked through
All them grown folk things Separation brings You never let me know it You never let it show Because you loved me and obviously There's so much more left to say If you were with me today Face to face
I never knew I could hurt like this And everyday life goes on I wish I could talk to you for a while Miss you but I try not to cry As time goes by
And it's true that you've Reached a better place Still I'd give the world to see your face And be right here next to you But it's like you're gone too soon Now the hardest thing to do is say
You never got a chance to see How good I've done And you never got to See me back at number one I wish that you were here To celebrate together I wish that we could Spend the holidays together
I remember when you used to Tuck me in at night With the teddy bear you gave me That I held so tight I thought you were so strong You'd make it through whatever It's so hard to accept the fact You're gone forever
I never knew I could hurt like this And everyday life goes on I wish I could talk to you for a while Miss you but I try not to cry As time goes by
And it's true that you've Reached a better place Still I'd give the world to see your face And be right here next to you But it's like you're gone too soon Now the hardest thing to do is say
This is for my peoples Who just lost somebody Your best friend, your baby Your man or your lady Put your hand way up high We will never say bye
Mamas, daddys, sisters, brothers Friends and cousins This is for my peoples Who lost their grandmothers Lift your head to the sky Cause we will never say bye, bye.
I never knew I could hurt like this And everyday life goes on I wish I could talk to you for a while Miss you but I try not to cry As time goes by
And it's true that you've Reached a better place Still I'd give the world to see your face And be right here next to you But it's like you're gone too soon Now the hardest thing to do is say
dedicated to: -dearest vincent n his family (for losing his uncle-pern pern's father) ... -masturah n family (for losing her younger sis) -joe n family (for losing his grandfather)
eeekkk!! my idol replied to me!!! haha... to herself she may be the "girl next door with big ambitions" but to me, she's like da wow!! (loss of words... wat can i say?? lol)
anyways i'm not sure if i can attend to her CD signing...coz my friend has sth on dat dae too...she looks sooo stunnning during the interview for channel newsasia... and her voice!!! my God, it sounds so heavenly!!!
p/s:the bubbletea sounds pretty stupid, i know... but hell, i was just trying to be welcoming haha!!!
i pre-ordered her album 'unfold' and disappointed, i wasnt!! so ppl.... get a listen already!... and she's pretty to boot!...so guys, u get to enjoy too!! hahah
There ain't no reason things are this way. It's how they always been and they intend to stay. I can't explain why we live this way. We do it every day.
Preachers on the podium speaking to saints. Prophets on the sidewalk begging for change. Old ladies laughing from the fire escape, Cursing my name.
I gotta a basket full of lemons and they all taste the same, A window and a pigeon with a broken wing, You can spend your whole life working for something, Just to have it taken away.
People walking around pushing back their debts, Wearing paychecks like necklaces and bracelets, Talking about nothing, not thinking about death, Every little heartbeat, every little breath.
People walk a tightrope on a razors edge. Carrying their hurt and hatred and weapons. It could be a bomb, or a bullet, or a pen, Or a thought, or a word, or a sentence.
There ain't no reason things are this way. Its how they've always been and they intend to stay. I don't know why I say the things I say, But I say them anyway.
But love will come set me free. Love will come set me free, I do believe. Love will come set me free, I know it will. Love will come set me free, yeah.
Prison walls still standing tall. Some things never change at all. Keep on building prisons, gonna fill them all. Keep on building bombs, gonna drop them all.
Working your fingers bare to the bone. Breaking' your back, make you sell you soul. Like a lung, it's filled with coal, Suffocating slow.
The wind blows wild and I may move. But politicians lie and I am not fooled. You don't need no reason or a three piece suit, To argue the truth.
The air on my skin and the world under my toes Slavery stitched into the fabric of my clothes Chaos and commotion wherever I go, Love I try to follow.
Love will come set me free Love will come set me free, I do believe Love will come set me free, I know it will Love will come set me free, yeah
There ain't no reason things are this way. Its how they've always been and they intend to stay. I can't explain why we live this way. We do it every day.
enuf of vulgarities already... feels so barbaric juz spitting it out like dat
a lot have been happening lately...
the latest one being mas's youngest sis passed away last fri
it was shocking... not really sure wat happened (some accident)... but i saw her grow up, u'know even though i'm not close to her sis... but it still hits home...
esp for someone so young like dat...
ppl who deserves to rot in hell is still here roaming on earth while people like her has to go like dat...
how do u get over this?? do u ever??
what do u say? what would you do??
knowing that she have such a close-knit family... i juz wish her well
death can affect you greatly... esp if its so close to you...
but oh well.... i went to these great places.... i editted my photos... after much hard work... error appeared.... cannot save... tried editting again... oso same...
yes... i'm fucked.... too hard....
WHEN WILL I EVER GET OUT OF THIS PHASE????
when i get a new laptop... yeah.... thats when!!
so ppl.... if u ever gonna ask abt the wellbeing of my com... i'm juz gonna say FUCKED
punggol jetty.... the one going to outward bound sg...
some of these are still alive, mind you... despite looking super dried up(i touched them and they MOVED!!!! ARRGH!!!)... if u wanna know how they look like after some time, u mite wanna scroll down... u learn sth new everyday, dontcha....
apparently, dear said this vessel is carrying liquid nitrogen (or hydrogen... i forgot) and if u shoot it, BBOOOMMMBB..... it will explode....
getting the idea oredy??
there u go!!!amazgin rite??i nvr knew how it came abt....lol... stupid me
see those leaves hanging by a string?? it seems someone was sooo wu liao they had to do it... but it looks stunning to me... esp when the wind was blowing....
i didnt take this pix in a full view... the jeep was actully perched on top of some kinda of slope/small hill... if u can see the slight height... it was kinda weird and awesome... coz only few vehicles can do this feat... weirdest is the windows was rolled down... looks like indiana jones searching for tarzannn hahha...
the road back from punggol jetty.... lookie road... like rollercoaster... look like... but not feel like... :P
my craaaazieeeeee bf
my crazy self potraitures...
i know this seems like happy times... well... yeah for a while... until i hafta go to the com and upload this..... then i'm down again.... shit
