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Thursday, July 27, 2006
he wrote the music..he wrote the words

"why dear i love you so much and
you have to be malay and i chinese
are we cursed?
or are we just plainly too stupid
to understand the laws of nature
mayb one or maybe both of us
defying what was called destiny
are we?"

"i always dream of a world
for only you and me then
and only then will i
truly be your (sic) and you
be mine
i love you"

"i am turning crazy i am
driving myself nuts
i cannot take it anymore
i need to hear your voice"

"i have no such virtue (patience) but
have much love for thee to
await the coming (of) your voice'

sms-es i received from dear yest... the first few left me almost in tears but the last few made me smile...
such beautiful words coming out from an ah beng looking guy.. aahh...siao ta bo...
-the law of nature is to love...
the destiny is us...
what we're defying is the custom of people...
the rules and regulations set by our very own ancestors....
i love you dear....



blessed or cursed?



there is only 4eva in us.... (sept) 3 yrs strong....

nonsensical ramblings posted by ain at 12:46 PM

Wednesday, July 26, 2006
if u really care, u will spend ur time





i am a comply-er
meaning i comply
acting in accordance to
what rules or guidelines
i've been given or taught
my creative facet has
long gone from my brain
nothing of the 'sympathetic'
emotion has
inhabited in my heart
for sometime oredy
the company has left me being hard-hearted
so forgive me if i seem a little cold
reviving the goodness in me
is solely depended on vincent
my one true love
vincent tiong wei zheng
for his presence
bring forth my virtues
i didnt know exists
yes. thats wat love can do to you
-sigh....

nonsensical ramblings posted by ain at 2:06 PM

Saturday, July 22, 2006
arts n remembrance



life n death of a pumpkin....



reminiscing backstreet era.. ahaha... i seriously think its funny...

nonsensical ramblings posted by ain at 8:45 AM

Friday, July 21, 2006
geek dance



after watching all da hip hop vids... chancing upon a great comical dance like this is a true gem... i wonder how long it took fer them to choreograph the whole thing...hmm.... its like geeky cool kinda dance that i wouldnt mind trying.... maybe i'll be a better dancer of this genre than hip hop.. ahahah.....interesting!!!

nonsensical ramblings posted by ain at 11:17 AM

Monday, July 17, 2006
the financial crisis:

the financial crisis:

ok, i really dunno wat to do
w/ my nxt pay...
shud i buy da new hp?
or save da $$$?
i've been werking in seagate
for da past 2 yrs
and not a single cent was saved
i used it all up all da time
on what??!!
food... si..alimento
my no. 1 weakness
the sole reason
for the shape i'm in rite now
pimply face
bulging fats all over the place...
weak strength
everything points out to my indulgence
unhealthy
si, unhealthy i am...
dancing to 'buttons' left me breathless
its not even 5 mins!!!
argh!!!
exercise... a strict regime i must follow!!
i want to feel gud like everybody
i want to experience that confidence
but wallowing in my current pathetic
state doesnt help does it?? ~sigh...
so... back to my economy crisis...
maybe i shud consult dear...
so that if it turns out to be a bad idea
@ least i can blame him...haahah!
a vile creature i am....
nah... i can alwasy forgive his faults...
for love is blind after all
but it is my own i find hard to pardon...
yes....
so consult dear i shall.. hehhe!!!


on another note,i wonder where
da hell da term 'lorry langgar'
derived from.. if u read da new paper
i'm sure those words are not a stranger to you
...hm... can a lady fall victim to ugliness after being hit by a lorry??
in the face i mean....
does being met w/ an accident
cripple ur face?hmm.... s'poreans are getting
really creative w/ their comparisons arent they.... :P
and here i was to think being langgar by lorry means u'll be flat like prata... :P

nonsensical ramblings posted by ain at 1:04 PM

Sunday, July 16, 2006
days to remember

pix i took of mas and hafiz for their anniversary i think...
very cool.... 4 yrs strong.. ~sigh... the next time i'll be taking their pix will be @ their wedding perhaps??






a scent of nostalgia
swept me off
as i reminisce
the backstreet era
yes,
i was a fan (a very staunch one!)
of theirs
(and i shall admit sheepishly that
i still am,actually :P)
a few hours of indulging
their videos on youtube.com
really brought back memories
of the times
when i would bring
their rolled up poster
to sch everyday (til the day it became extremely tattered)
i would sleep
hugging the radio
wishing to hear their
voices on air (no $ to buy cassettes)
and when my wishes were granted
i would savour their
melodious sounds
my heart would thump so loud
its as if they're rite there beside me
i would count the times
i watched their videos
the times i would sneakily
turn the tv on late @ nite
just to see the reruns of mtv top 20
so that i can look @ them w/ lustly eyes...
haha!
i was a dork... not many friends
and too much time on my hands... :P
hell, i seek solace by
listening to bsb
i would memorise their lyrics by heart
emulate their dances
imitate their goofyness...
~sigh...
those were the days....
....

nonsensical ramblings posted by ain at 9:22 AM

Wednesday, July 12, 2006
the stale bread pt 2



the uninspiring,
thought-provoking
vomit-inducing
story...

ye be warned!!


i haf a body
not exactly the body
but at least i haf a body
yeah...


p/s :its not a story, i know
but w/ all these
perfect bodies, slimming
propaganda floating all over
the media.... all it takes is money
to look like a barbie..y'know..
-sigh...so tempting
i wonder how it feels
like to be beautiful...
to be somebody...

...

nonsensical ramblings posted by ain at 9:00 AM

Tuesday, July 11, 2006
pirates of the caribbean




2 more days...
yes!!!
the waits is over soon!!

nonsensical ramblings posted by ain at 10:34 AM

Saturday, July 08, 2006
a stale bread



a lousy writer



and a dreamer

a stale bread: a new era

todae i did self-potraits... lil narcissim sparked
a spotlight.liquid base foundation.mascara
a set of clothes.cam and tripod....
turns out ok tho...
cant expect much...
i've never looked that gud and i doubt cams can do much
to alter my face for the better....lol...
in the comfort of my own room...~sigh...

a stale bread:
my very own self description
love the diction... the vowels...
the way the words resonates
after i pronounce them
me...
coz i was once was but not anymore
oh well....

romeo & juliet..
watched it w/ dear yesterdae...
shit: i cried loads...
my eyes were swollen...(yes, really)
somehow a small deep corner part of my heart
relates a little...
wat will become of me and vinny dear?
shall we be like this foreva?
enduring the sad fact that i may never marry the man i truly love??
actually romeo n juliet really did marry... but their romance was a very short one
i guess i'm lucky i've been enjoying his company since almost 3 yrs ago...
and never once did i ever regret starting this...
coz its better to love than to never love at all??
....argh... stop thinking!!! i nid chocolates.... help :P

nonsensical ramblings posted by ain at 11:59 AM

Friday, July 07, 2006
aint no other man

but you... i love you, vincent tiong wei zheng...

Ain't No Other Man by Christina Aguilera
Do your thang honey!

I could feel it from the start,
Couldn't stand to be apart.
Something 'bout you caught my eye,
Something moved me deep inside!
I don't know what you did boy but you had it
And i've been hooked ever since.
I told my mother, my brother, my sister and my friends
I told the others, my lovers, both past and present tense.
That everytime I see you everything starts making sense.

Do your thang honey!

Ain't no other man, can stand up next to you
Ain't no other man on the planet does what you do
(what you do).
You're the kinda guy, a girl finds in a blue moon.
You got soul, you got class.
You got style, you bad ass - oh yeah!
Ain't no other man its true - alright -
Ain't no other man but you.

Never thought I'd be alright. No, no, no! Till you came and changed my life. Yeah, yeah, yeah!
What was cloudy now is clear! Yeah, yeah! You're the light that I needed.
You got what I want boy, and I want it! So keep on givin' it up!

Tell your mother, your brother, your sister, and your friends.
And the others, your lovers, better not be present tense.
Cause I want everyone to know that you are mine and no one else's!

Ain't no other man, can stand up next to you
Ain't no other man on the planet does what you do
(what you do).
You're the kinda guy, a girl finds in a blue moon.
You got soul, you got class.
You got style, you bad ass - oh yeah!
Ain't no other man it's true - alright -
Ain't no other man but you.

Break it down now!

Ain't no other, ain't, ain't no other! (other)
Ain't no other, ain't, ain't no other LOVER!
Ain't no other, I, I, I need no other!
Ain't no other man but you!

Ohhhh!

You are there when I'm a mess
Talk me down from every ledge
Give me strength, boy you're the best
You're the only one who's ever passed every test

Ain't no other man, can stand up next to you
Ain't no other man on the planet does what you do
(what you do).
You're the kinda guy, a girl finds in a blue moon.
You got soul, you got class.
You got style with ya bad ass - oh yeah!
Ain't no other man it's true - alright -
Ain't no other man but you.

And now I'm tellin you son, ain't no other man but you

Ain't no other man, can stand up next to you
Ain't no other man on the planet does what you do
(what you do).
You're the kinda guy, a girl finds in a blue moon. (baby, baby, baby)
You got soul, you got class.
You got style ya bad ass - oh yeah!
Ain't no other man it's true - alright -
Ain't no other man but you.

nonsensical ramblings posted by ain at 12:01 PM