today i heard that condescending mutters again(!!)
the last time i encountered this was when i had that reggae style mop hair
(i like it, dun ask me why)
now, it abt my dyed hair....
i know, its controversial(shud it be?)
coz its white streaks
but who cares except me?!! i wanna look this way
what the hell is matter with those pea-brains??
if i dun like this colour, i may have jolly well changed it long ago
why criticised me for my taste, my sytle?
i dun gif a rat's ass if i looked horrible or old
(which was my main intention,btw...to look wise and old)
why look at me like i've been cursed?
and why da freaking hell am i so outraged over this.
so ironic, not caring what others think abt me yet so
angry when they look down on me.
i dunno abt u, but sometimes having this bi-racial face is a bit of a curse
cos the malays will be talking bad abt me, assuming that i'm some cina bukit "chinese village"girl
or it doesnt help either when the chinese say some things abt you
thinking u wouldnt know just what they were talking abt, hello, i may be malay
but i do know a few words unfortunately i know more bad chinese words than the good ones and when
a conversation abt me contains a lot of words that are familiar to me, i shud be worried...
or i shudnt be rite? coz who cares? i shudnt gif a"! toot!" abt what others say, rite??
this is confusing. why am i always contradicting my own sweet words??
