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Sunday, July 19, 2009
olazzzz

this is what you get when you're bored...

u chance upon interesting things :D

ab...sooooo...luttteeeely gorgeous hair!!! i want i want! darn i shud have seen this before i stubbornly curled up my hair!!!



originally i was looking at this video



that led me to that gorgeous hair...hehe.. awesome, no??


here's one more



"u want your eyes to look a bit like a cartoon... so its ok to be a bit dramatic"
wahaha... i like the way she say it... sounds darn funny!!
i wanna look like a cartoon... wehehehehehehee....
sry.... i juz find it hilarious... teh way she say it...

but no doubt, i've always wanted anime eyes...
(realise how anime suonds cooler than cartoon eyes?? wahahahahha...sry i cant help myself!)

ok la... enuf for now.... wahahahah... she's so pretty... i wish im like her.. sigh

Wednesday, July 15, 2009
te amo

Verse 1:
Te amo, te amo
She says to me, I hear the pain in her voice
Then we danced underneath the candelabra she takes the lead
That's when i saw it in her eyes, it's over

Chorus:
Then she says te amo then she put her hand around me waist
I told her no,
She cries te amo i told her i'm not gonna run away, but lemme go
My soul isn't crying, without asking why
I said te amo, wish somebody tell me what she said

Don't it mean I love you
Think it means I love you
Don't it mean I love you

Verse 2:
Te amo, te amo, she's scared to breathe
I hold her hand, i've got no choice uhh
Pull me out on the beach, danced in the water, i start to leave
She's begging me and asking, why it's over?

Chorus:
Then she says te amo then she put her hand around me waist
I told her no,
She cries te amo i told her i'm not gonna run away, but lemme go
My soul isn't crying, without asking why
I said te amo, wish somebody tell me what she said

Don't it mean I love you
Think it means I love you
Don't it mean I love you

Verse 3:
Listen we can dance, but 'cha gotta watch ur hands
watch me all night, im movin' to the night because i understand
that we all need love and i'm not afraid to feel
the love but i dont feel that way

Chorus:
Then she says te amo then she put her hand around me waist
I told her no
She cries te amo i told her im not gonna run away but lemme go
My soul isn't crying, without asking why
I said te amo, wish somebody tell me what she said

Don't it mean I love you
Think it means I love you
Don't it mean I love you
Think it means i love you, love you...

Te amo, te amo...
Don't it mean I love you



the lyrics sounds interesting???
listen to the music.. it sso damn nice!!

weird lyrics tho... ahah... like lesbian love... :P



when i post in my facebook that i am ready for challenges,asking to bring it on,
never would i have tot that God would REALLY brought it on to me!! ahha...

Audrey left the company leaving Rizal to take her place.And now im taking over Rizal's place...wanna know the best part? Rizal's job scope is totally different from me or any of my previous experiences. now i'll be doing marketing...web development and sales. sounds fun rite?and scary too coz it is something that ive nvr done before. in fact, you know what? ever since i joined GB, My Boss have been exposing me to various dept. it was super fun, and frankly, im grateful.i mean, considering the kind of attention span i have(very short, i tell you!), it really is an advantage to me.i first came in as receptionist, then became admin helping out with the production followed by assisting the designers with their artwork (mostly amending co details and conversion), then i get to help out the circulation side, i was also involved(2gether w the rest of the admin girls) with the info dept doing the research and development thingy on classifications.i guess i am only left with a few dept tt i have never been in.. ahhahah.. funny la... considering now im part time customer service exec... such a heavy load! sooo many dept rite?? sounds crazy man! and hectic! within a span of 7 mth, no less! i wonder where i'll be in 12 mths... hmmm......

Monday, July 13, 2009
fantastic!!!

a great forwarded email!!! pls read and ponder on it!







Smooth roads never make good drivers
Smooth sea never makes good sailors

Clear Skies never makes good Pilots .


Problem and hassle free Life
NEVER makes a strong person
Be Strong enough to accept the challenges of Life

Don't ask Life , 'Why Me ? .
Instead say 'try Me!'

Sunday, July 12, 2009
vitruvian man

this was a few weeks ago when dear decided to go to the kranji fish farm. we've been there a few times, but i nvr managed to really take pix. our usual haunt is the hauseman fish marketing or sth like dat (shall get the correct info next time i visit! :P) that was where we went for our 1st awesome fish spa.haha...they also have HUGE fish feeding, koi and tuttles feeding... quite fun. the we saw this breeding area... see how it works?? they hang the bottle into the pond. they turn the top bottle opening inside out. so tt when the fish becomes big, when they swim into the opening, its harder to swim out. tt is how they separates the big and the small fish coz sometimes big fishes like to eat the small ones :P we also went to the qian hu to play longkang fishing. darn hard i tell you... more jialat than prawn fishing. longkang fishing is physical!!!! and relies heavily on your reflexes.... HEAVILY i tell you... you have no idea how fast those guppies are! esp those small ones! but once u've caught it, major relief(coz others caught so much oredy and u still havent caught much, MY experience....hahah) and satisfaction!!!!!

drop into the pond.
inside the net is where they breed... lay eggs... then the egg will drop to the pond's floor. disallowing the parents to eat their own babies. then the babies will grow then once big will get trap inside the bottle lor.... interesting rite?? dear taught me one!! so smart he!

then we went to the bollywood veggies to eat a bit. they have bollywood curry quite ok la.. very indian style
lemongrass (malay is serai) drink....
see themap...the farm is big rite??? next time im gg to explore!! :D
the deco of the restaurant... see tt many types of hats... farmer hats, cowboy hats....

our food has arrived... mine was the thai green curry, dear was the bollywood curry, both meat chicken.
dear tried the brown rice. i opt for white rice.

the papaya salad.... nice..... even dear liked it :D
this was like erm... some time ago lol....i think last week la... we went to pay his judo class fees @ the spans club in ah hood rd, then we went to the bowling area. it was sooooo little crowd, im quite happy tt i wont be sooo embarassed haha...

imagine my 1st throw was my BEST score... the rest went downhill afterwards... lol... kept going longkang.... :P
V vs A .... 1st score mine was better... my balls are pink!!! hahaha... bowling balls laaa....cute rite... so striking... too bad i didnt strike... @ ALL.... :P
The Da Vinci Outing
chim word we learnt yesterday.vitruvian man... proud to say i can pronounce it without much difficulty... as compared to dear... ahahah
we went to the da vinci exhibition (coz i was desperate to "be inspired" ahahah)
yesterday, lo and behold, imagine my surprise, dear was more informative than me!
in fact,half of the exhibits was explained by him to me... ahaha
(he was the one who told me Leonardo's last name is not DaVinci, it just means Leornado from Vinci .... ohhhhh now i know :P... then he scold me, say how come i had wanted to go to his exhibition soooo darn badly and yet i dun even know the most important fact abt his name... hahahaah :P)

its juz tt his creations were waaaaay technical, he didnt even have to read the explaination he knew how the mechanisms was gonna werk...awesome, no?

"i am NOT smarter than my bf" :P

i left the exhibit definitely more inspired(even if it lasted for a min :P)
coz he really took all of his ideas and thoughts seriously.
he made it happen, even when there is a possibility tt it mite not werk, he still went on with it. he didnt have any doubts and he didnt think any of his ideas was crazy or not. he didnt think he could create the thing we now call the helicopter or aeroplane, but he did came up with a few ideas and spread it around.
in hopes tt, if he couldnt do it, perhaps someone could improve on his idea.
genius... and generous... humble tooo...
too bad i cant take photos inside... but i did buy a few souvenirs...


i bought a poster of his montage of works, a book about his exhibitions, i got a bag fer free. i also bought a cup/mug and a ruler.


stll havent take out the plastic :P
after that we headed to kim's bbq @ pasir ris... it was raining cats and dogs and sheeps and cows man!!!... it was a very wet late evening... thankfully, the rain stopped ard 9. i ate a bit, then headed to the new ehub! @ pasir ris shopping centre... it looks cool.... got hei sushi! halal sushi babe!! wahhhh cannot wait to try! then we went over to x-zone coz dear wanted to play the punch machine. unfortunately, there dun haf... but we played the scoop game instead.
dear changed a lot of $$$. this was our loot! dear managed to get the fluffy phone chain bear at the scoop game too... i am sooooo proud of him!!!!! so shiok sia... having won sth!!!... :D
in total. so far. we spent about $120 on scoop games... since we started. madness rite... we could have got more if we juz buy outside, however, this game may be ex, but the feeling of winning it : priceless!!!! thank you dear!!! :D
when dear went to change his $$$$ to coin to play the game, the cashier gave dear THIS note!!! can u imagine our luck??!!! dear was like, "eh, you dun want to keep this $ ah?" he was like " i myself no $$ to use ".... then dear gave me the note to keep!!! nice rite???? got the word singapore and brunei darussalam.

so shiok.... then this morning, dear found out he got chicken pox!!!!! wahahahahahah.... 2 weeks MC!!! can spend time with me liao!! yay! :P and yes... i forced him to go out with me despite him having fever... :P since tuesday fever and today sunday, he diagnosed chicken pox.. :P he la.... oways like to put on hold his health when work is concerned... seee? now kenna 2 weeks mc liao... muz rest well!!! :D

on a sad note, dear's beloved fish, the dragon eel passed away yesterday morning coz it was suspected tt it was attacked by the sucker fish coz the body got wounds all over.... tt bloody sucker fish!!!!!! when i heard the news from him and then to hear him cry.... sad sia....omg
no matter, im here for you, dear!!! :D

Friday, July 10, 2009
wooah

another great find!!


gamelan music has always been one of my interest...
i have a certain attraction to beats, esp heavy ones.

so gamelan is defintely no exception.



funny la see all ang moh doing it hahaha... :P


this is seriously hilarious!!!-below




loving this song and dance... asmaradana by tiara jacquelina-below



true gamelan songs

its titled drunk firefly.... ahhaha funny laaa



this is titled junkboat arrived/go in



big war






2NE1 video... here's another one!




whassup w korea and girl bands???
they all look so cute and have awesome catchy songs...
wat a package :P



anyways... lifes been treating me well... :)
i love the music i've been chanced upon,
i love the videos i found on youtube,
i love my job (for now!! hahaa)
i love the fact tt im studying
i love my friends
i love my dear
i love my family (for now, ahahha)

muacks everyone!

Sunday, July 05, 2009
miss

i miss him... :P


actually oni few hrs ago had a conversation.

but isnt it funny...

u dunt know what you've got til its gone?? lol...

anyways, dear is on a trip to pahang with his family.
stupid thing was he and his family booked the trip quite early liao
then recently the tour guide say got changes to plans.
the malaysians on the coach dun wanna share coach with s'poreans coz
apparently s'poreans carry the H1N1 flu.
so poor dear have to drive all the way there ON HIS OWN
using his own car! but following the coach behind.
isnt this stupid...im juz worried for his safety la... coz its quite a long drive.
the only thing they managed to do was conpensated his family with a resort stay instead of a hotel stay... better be worth it lor... but no matter, im juz worried for his health and safety...

esp on this sunday when i have nothing to do at all..
suddenly the absence was more prominent
every waking min i feel like sms-ing him ... :P
but how to? he no roaming plus it costs more...
me and my itchy hands :P

sigh... muz endure this until monday nite...
seems quite fast rite? ahah
now im wondering how the hell i managed to get thru during his ns...
whereby i had to live not contacting him til weeks on end.
wow.....
then again... if i can live thru that, im sure i can live thru this :D

come to think of it,
when i go on trips to malaysia this is how he muz have felt like...
waaahhhh so painful...
i had fun while he was in s'pore missing me :P


remembering tt fateful day:

he told me he misses me so much when i was at cameron having the time of my life.
he had totally nothing to do with no plans at all.
in fact he juz spend time thinking about me... :P
sweet rite...
then stupid me go and dropped the bombshell tt my Godgrandma said abt
me having a pontential malay guy waiting for me :P
i guess it seriously wasnt the best time to break the news...
i can be sooooo insensitive sometimes!!!
but after what has happened
i understand my God grandma oni wants wats best for me
and despite her advice, i still went on with dear

i know im not getting any younger.
but i do not want to be brainwashed by these people.
i almost bought them.
but i realise, after seeing the people around me,
tt its best to juz stick to what you have.
i mean vincent is one of the BEST thing tt have happened to my life.
why should i trade him for a malay guy who could potentially be my husband?
what if he isnt as great as vincent?
nvm as great as him... but what if he's a cheating liar bastard?
hahaaha.... i dun mean to judge without even knowing tt guy.
but knowing the person tt i am ;
a very confused, mostly not tt great a person or a friend;
i feel like i really treasure my best friends and of course dear.
they put up with me for sooo long im actually quite touched :P ahah
esp with dear who has been the most wonderful person to me
my punch bag, my confidant, my best friend.
the person i am not afraid to fart or dig my nose in front of (hahah!),
the person i am not afraid to be weird or crazy to
he saw ALL my weaknesses...and accepted it...

im juz not sure many others out there will.....

awesome finds

awesome finds from the youtube!

Let me die with you




they're albanian. cool!

2NE1 - FIRE





they're korean! cool!!!!!


Mixed Up - Hannah Montana






been listening to latest hannah montana season 3 soundtrack of her series...
loving it... less fun, more emo but just as nice or more :D
awesomeness!!!!!
i love hannah montana series!!!!