i miss him... :P


actually oni few hrs ago had a conversation.

but isnt it funny...

u dunt know what you've got til its gone?? lol...

anyways, dear is on a trip to pahang with his family.
stupid thing was he and his family booked the trip quite early liao
then recently the tour guide say got changes to plans.
the malaysians on the coach dun wanna share coach with s'poreans coz
apparently s'poreans carry the H1N1 flu.
so poor dear have to drive all the way there ON HIS OWN
using his own car! but following the coach behind.
isnt this stupid...im juz worried for his safety la... coz its quite a long drive.
the only thing they managed to do was conpensated his family with a resort stay instead of a hotel stay... better be worth it lor... but no matter, im juz worried for his health and safety...

esp on this sunday when i have nothing to do at all..
suddenly the absence was more prominent
every waking min i feel like sms-ing him ... :P
but how to? he no roaming plus it costs more...
me and my itchy hands :P

sigh... muz endure this until monday nite...
seems quite fast rite? ahah
now im wondering how the hell i managed to get thru during his ns...
whereby i had to live not contacting him til weeks on end.
wow.....
then again... if i can live thru that, im sure i can live thru this :D

come to think of it,
when i go on trips to malaysia this is how he muz have felt like...
waaahhhh so painful...
i had fun while he was in s'pore missing me :P


remembering tt fateful day:

he told me he misses me so much when i was at cameron having the time of my life.
he had totally nothing to do with no plans at all.
in fact he juz spend time thinking about me... :P
sweet rite...
then stupid me go and dropped the bombshell tt my Godgrandma said abt
me having a pontential malay guy waiting for me :P
i guess it seriously wasnt the best time to break the news...
i can be sooooo insensitive sometimes!!!
but after what has happened
i understand my God grandma oni wants wats best for me
and despite her advice, i still went on with dear

i know im not getting any younger.
but i do not want to be brainwashed by these people.
i almost bought them.
but i realise, after seeing the people around me,
tt its best to juz stick to what you have.
i mean vincent is one of the BEST thing tt have happened to my life.
why should i trade him for a malay guy who could potentially be my husband?
what if he isnt as great as vincent?
nvm as great as him... but what if he's a cheating liar bastard?
hahaaha.... i dun mean to judge without even knowing tt guy.
but knowing the person tt i am ;
a very confused, mostly not tt great a person or a friend;
i feel like i really treasure my best friends and of course dear.
they put up with me for sooo long im actually quite touched :P ahah
esp with dear who has been the most wonderful person to me
my punch bag, my confidant, my best friend.
the person i am not afraid to fart or dig my nose in front of (hahah!),
the person i am not afraid to be weird or crazy to
he saw ALL my weaknesses...and accepted it...

im juz not sure many others out there will.....