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Wednesday, September 02, 2009
frust

frust sums it all.

so many things to say too little time (or juz darn lazy)


lets juz fragment it... or i'll just type as it runs thru my mind
see if u can catch up...

here goes:


i was like being thrown into the sea.
i had no idea wat to expect
like no parents no one to guide
i dunno wat to do or say.
what is rite or wrong
i dun even know what i am.
how can i be sure who's advice to accept?
when all seems so contradicting?
and then there's the bites.
people wanna eat me.
kill me.
i feel like giving up.


i didnt mean to miss so much.
not like i had any choice.
then u came
who died and made u boss?
suddenly u were intimidating me
pushing us ard.
who the hell are you to authorize me?
then theres no hope.
yes. im slow. stupid.idiotic (if u want me to confess to tt level)
no one wants to help.
im alone.
suddenly i feel like i had to do it alone to prove myself to THEM
that hey.... IM NOT STUPID


i love my colleagues.
gossips abound.
who slp with who
that who slp with how many who
who fights with who
its awesome...

sometimes i feel like i hold sooooo many secrets i feel like bursting
maybe i have my memory to thank. coz im so forgetful.


and suddenly i feel oh so alone.


will you cry in my funeral??

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...
...
...



no.
i promise u,u wont even know im gone.