yesterdae was slow
i failed my first ever class assignment
and it was only those stupid colour codes
i keep making bad careless
calculation mistakes
its irritating...
i could haf passed
but all i get was a measly 44 while my friend
got a 96... arrghhhhh.. i was on the verge of tears....
maths was nvr my thing...
the reason why i gave up struggling fer it
part of the reason why i wasnt in poly...
and what da hell cld have persuaded me to join this course
is this a mistake??
the whole failing thing left me in a sullen mood
afraid a single wrong word wld trigger the tears...
y am i being petty? coz its not...
failing module one means
not ever considering engineering as a career
am i stupid? i must be
arghh....the vile claws of "quitter"
is gaining momentum...scratching
alluring me to do the unforgivable....
stop!!!
ok thats it.... i hafta stop all these wallowing....
seems so simple to give up,....
so hard to put on that extra effort that might just have worked...
failure... my fear and yet somehow i hafta face it...face it...
overcome my fear of failure....
not many noes...(maybe not even dear)
failure and rejection is my weakness...
too many times i have tried avoiding it...
too many times...successful...
and this is wat left of me...
a fucking coward...
yes