its been a long time
since i've gone in-depth
with my surrounding (altho my
'in-depth' doesnt totally mean "deep"
so much to touch on
like fer example

i rEally feel like i've changed
physically and mentally
maybe not so drastically
but i noticed it. yeah.
things that i used to
shrug off
have finally brought to my attention
hard to adapt,really
(esp da "why am i so f***ing ugly!!?")
but well, i'm learning to manage
(hey! another quality i'm adopting!)

last time,the only facial regime
i'd religiously did was to
cleanse the face with facial wash
nothing more.
no moisturisers, no toners, no make-ups,even
the only powder i'd own was talcum
i did not know how to take care of my body
my appearance
(hence my hideous looks now. oh regrettably)
but i do now
sometimes i'm more chatty
sometimes i'd dare to try sth new
sometimes i'd challenge myself to go over my
usualy boundaries.
these little things
makes who i am 2dae, now
i'm growing up.at my own pace
but slow as it may seem it makes
a darn big difference to me
its not easy
breaking out from your normal routine.
its like, going cold turkey on your old habits...
imagine that!!
as they say... old ones dun go, new ones dun come... so true yeah??

i was watching the barbie diaries (i was really bored)
it belongs to my sis. she has almost everything of barbie's vcds...
there was this quote taken from da movie.
she said " it doesnt take anything to be popular... there is no right jeans, right clothes, the shop you have to go to, its just being the real you."

kinda funny right? come to think of it... why does da tv shows
always potrays the popular kids as mean bitchy people??
and why da hell are they popular? doesnt makes sense...
even rude celebrities gets fucked for their insolent, diva-ish debutante antics...
sometimes i think tv shows are a bit corrupting to some minds...
(esp a naive's mind like mine!!)
brainwashed arent we all??
or is it the american's mindset are diff from us/??
ahahah sorry, i dun mean that... america is big
not right to stereotype them as one mind...dumb mind... :P